Cigarettes
#Chapter3 Cigarettes
/"jongin.. /" my mum softly called knocking on the door frame gently .something she always did. As if she was afraid of me or something. She always seemed like that .
I ignored her and turned in my bed . Facing the other way .
/"breakfast is ready .. /"
/"I don't care /"
She sighed disappointed.
What did she expect when she tells me that . Never did I eat with her and she knew that . She just came up here to sigh disappointingly at me to let me know what a screw up I am over and over again..
The door closed and I could still hear her steps down the stairs through the thin walls .
My eyes drifted to the clock
7:30
School starts in half an hour ..
I should get ready . Not for school tho . I'm going to drop some money off and just skip the first lesson .chat said dieg needs the money for his father now .
Brushing my teeth and just running my hand through my hair a few times I got dressed and grabbed my bag. Skipping a few steps on my way back downstairs as I checked my cigarettes,
what would I do without them .
They will make me wake .
mum glanced at me once I Pass the table and I did aswell not spending a word tho when I slipped on my shoes and leather jacket.
Opening the door as if she wasn't there I closed it behind me again turning the volume of my headphones to the highest.
/"finally look who's here /" dieg spoke stomping towards me as I got to the meeting place under the bridge .
He frowned looking at me when he grabbed my bag and ripped it off me .
/"where's the money ?/"
/"here wait /"I tried to stop him from searching to show him but he was faster then me throwing the bag back to the dirty ground once he got a gripp of the money .
I groaned picking it up and trying to dust it off while he counted the money with chat besides him and sye sitting a little further away sipping from his beet bottle .
/"this is only 100 bugs /" he spat turning to me again and I raised both my eyebrows .
He seemed angerd by that when he charged forward and grabbed me by my collar harshly .
I dropped the bag grabbing his fists to steady myself as I glared at him .
/"this is not enough!/"
/"well I don't have more ok so fuck off !/" He punched me at that and I stumbled back .holding myself right in time before I could land on the ground .
/"Hey hey there Diego /" chat laughed holding him back .
/"mocoso doesn't have more obviously ok .. I'm sure he will get you the money so calm down /"
I whipped under my nose seeing spots of blood marking my hand now .before I glared back up at him .
Just as chat walked closer to me .fixing my jacket provocatly .. i sniffed
/"chat I can't get more money you know my mum locks it away I don't even know where- /"
/"slow down .. you sound like a gad damn pussy right now /" he chuckled and my frown faded now .
/"sounds like your scared .. /" he looked disappointed at me and I swallowed looking behind him at dieg taking a sip from his own bottle while cursing me with sye and a few other guys that had arrived now .who seemed amused by this situation .
/"I'm not /" looked back at him with a hardened expression.
He huffed with a smirk
/"you will figure of something, afterall we cant hang around poor losers now can we ? /" he pressed his beer bottle to me and I took it slowly still staring at him when he winked and turned around.
/"h-how much ?/"
I cursed inward at how my voice shock because of the hesistance .
/"1000-100 = ?/" He yelled to me before rushing back to the others grabbing a fresh bottle for himself as he laughed .
I swallowed looking at the bottle now in my hand before I turned around to get into the car just staring out to them sitting on old boxes and joking together, smoking and drinking beer .chat was still talking to dieg to cool him down .
My hands tightened around the steering wheel before i took a sip of the beer starting my car and driving off .
I didn't stop drinking the beer while I drove .just sipping and sipping until it was empty .the trees passing by turning way too boring for me. So I ended up smoking one cigarette after another the radio turned up.
I cursed stopping the car just on the side of the road and throwing the bottle into one of the trees in anger .
How the hell am I suppose to get 900 bugs !? .. why does he need it anyway.
But I can't chicken out of this . They wouldn't only send me away they would kill me . It's money this time and money is important to them .they aren't fucking around when it's about money i can basically hang myself now ..
I need money .
After I had calmed from earlier I went back to school as always .. I was searching for distraction . Silence was never a good friend of mine. So teachers nagging at me all day seemed the best distraction for me .
Right now Mr.Pean scolded me as I leaned back looking at him rather bored .
He was scolding yelling and throwing his hands in the air trying so hard to proof his point, it was funny . His mouth moving so fast but none of his words reached my ears. He slammed his hand onto my table again and I sighed . Looking onto the door .
/"I need to use the toilet /"
He was quiet now
/"did you even listen to what I said !?/"
/"nope/" I popped the p and stood up
/"Mr.kim !/"
/"Mr.Peanis /"
The whole class started laughing quietly as I made my way out of class only hearing his yell for them to stop laughing before the door closed and I adjusted my bag walking along the halls again .
I stopped in my tracks when I heard noises tho .slamming and books dropping . A few chuckles and cursing between aswell as pants and whimpers.
My frown faded once I turned around the corner slightly to see a like 3 guys circling a shorter boy . Pushing him against the lockers all over when he tried to hold the few books that didn't already land on the ground .
This wasn't something new , bullying was everywhere .funny how people can't even stand up for themselves.
They deserve all they get .. life isn't a fairy tale if you aren't strong enough to even defend yourself then you might aswell give up .
Usually I would walk past but I was bored anyway so I ended up just watching them ,leaning against the lockers that were around the corner somehow wondering if that weakling decides to stand up for himself or not.
He didn't . And after a while. After I finished my second cigarette halfway .even they got bored and left. Giving each other small pushes and high fives as to say how great they just were.
Show's over I guess .
My steps continued to walk past the boy
But then I realized once i got closer and actually saw his full form ..
that the boy was the annoying tiny nerd ... Gathering his books from the ground carefully as if he was afraid to damage them more .
I stopped in front of him and he glanced up once he saw my shoes before him. A smile appeard as bright as the first time I saw him and he stood up holding the books and adjusting his glasses in which one of them had a small crack. There were no bruises on him tho just a split lip .they probably went for the stomach only .typical .
/"peanut /" I rolled my eyes .
/"haven't seen you since yesterday/" he giggled looking over me .
/"oh really? No shit ?/"
/"you curse a lot /" he rose his eyebrows. I don't even know why I stopped in front of his pathetic form now he's going to talk to me why did I do that .
annoyed I didn't even answer him and continued walking past him .
/"peanut, wait /" he quieckly followed me walking .. well limping besides me.
/"what about the project we need to discuss what genre and artist as example we wil-/"
/"there's no project /" simply said i was blowing the smoke of my cigarette casually into the air.
/"w-what ?/" He seemed shocked which I didn't quite understand since he can clearly see what kind of person I am .with my tattoos and cigarettes I don't exacly seem like a guy who does extra work for school I nearly make it through every grade .
/"don't act stupid, look at me. You cant honestly have thought that I would work for this project /"
/"well why did you agree to working with me then ?/" He stopped me by holding me back and I now frowned down at him when he did the same only up to me .
/"because the goody goody teacher blackmailed me and I thought I would just have to act like I give a shit while you do all the work ./" He was quiet at that and I took another smoke smirking at him .
/"get something cold on your eye it's swollen a little /"
/"so is your cheek and ego /" my smirk faded and I threw the cigarette away.
/"watch your words /"
/"why ? You'll beat me too? Like someone beat you?/" My hand flew to his collar in anger
/"shut the fuck up /"
/"people like you are everywhere you know .. because they're fighting all those demons inside of them they think they need to fight everything elsr aswell when they don't./" I pushed him back at that my frown hardening even more.
/"what are you now a poet ?/" He shrugg his shoulders smiling again
/"could I be ?/"
What the hell is wrong with this boy.
/"just piss off would you ?/"
/"nope /" he popped his p something I always did .
/"why do you care about this stupid mark so much anyway ?/" I groaned at him and he pursed his lips looking down .
/"I'm new so all the subjects were hard for me and I'm having a job too so I couldn't attend every lesson and always missed music.. my grades kinda dropped even more than from the old school and with this project I can save them again /"
He nodded hopeful up at me
/"please help me /" he folded his hands before his books still holding them between his hands and chest .
/"why would I care about this ?/"
/"because you're a nice peanut ?/"
He rose an eyebrow
/"fuck. you /" I simply fake smiled at him when I continued walking .
/"oh come on please ! I need this project /" he whined walking besides me /"peanut !/"
/"peeeeaaanuuutt/" God he's so annoying
/"pe- pepe- peanut yeah /" so annoying !
/"peeanut the nice tall peaanut the nice nice peanut that smells like peee ..so much like pe-/"
I groaned stopping to glare at him and he stopped aswell biting both his lips and acting innocently .
/"you can annoy me all you want ok but I won't do this fucking project with an annoying little fuck up like you !/"
/"I'm not little tho,..
I'm just a bit shorter than the avera-/"
/"SHUT THE FUCK UP !/" I groaned and he giggled when I rubbed my hand over my face /"just fuck off /"
/"mh sorry not an option /"
/"well neither is the project for me unless you got money /" once more I turned with a sigh to start walking my own path.
This time he didn't follow and I thought he would finally leave me alone but I should have known better .
/"how much do you need ?/" His voice was a little quieter now and once I turned around to look at him he was looking to the ground uncomfortably .
/"900 /" he rose his head at that with wide eyes .
/"see /" I was about to turn back again when he held my arm to stop me
/"wait ! .. em I c-Can give you but not now I can give you 200 tomorrow another 200 and the rest of the week 100 by the end of this week you'll have your 900 /" It was my turn to raise both eyebrows at him. He is actualy going to pay me almost 1000 bugs just for a project ..
/"b-but you have to absolutely promise to finish the project with me the best way we can !/" I smiled breathy nodding my head
/"fuck, are you serious /"
He hummed nodding with a smile
/"well when can I have the first 200 ?/" His hand dropped from my arm and he laid his books down before turning his bag to look through it,he pulled out a old bakerybag and opened it pulling a lot of 10s and 20s out before finally a 100 . Swallowing when it was now pretty much empty .
/"h-here /"
I took them counting through them and yeah .. damn those were really 200 he's the solution to my problem .
/"and when will we meet to discuss our topic ?/" He waved his hand in front of me between he money and me just as the he'll rang .
I quickly shoved the money in my pocket and looked over him .
He trusted me .
/"whenever you want /"
/"let's go after school /" he picked his books back up grimacing slightly as he held his side from the earlier beating ./"my last lesson finishes at 2pm what about you ?/"
/"2 pm /" actually at 4 I think I don't even know because I don't care .it's biologie I think .
/"at the back park /" he signed to me walking off .
He really trust's me .
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/"yeah .. no I told him I'd do the project with him for 900 .. /" I laughed talking to chat on the phone
/"no he'll pay me 200 tomorrow , then 100 each and by the End of the week Diego can have his 900 promise . Just wait a little ok..
Yeah ..
Probably after school from now on..
Like 17 I think I know what a prick..
At 2pm ...
What ? ..
No ..
I slept through the classes how should I fucking know ?/" I leet my cigarette fall stomping on it .
/"shut no /"
Hearing his words I moved my phone away from my ears to check the time myself .
3:15 pm
/"shit ... talk to you later /" I hung up putting the phone away as I picked my bag up and rushed around the corner to the front of the school to pass it and get to the back .further away .through all the halls and last the lockers .
3:20
I still rushed bumping against a few students and turning around another corner
3:30
Finally I've reached the park not too far from the school. My eyes scanned the place surprisendly there weren't a lot of students. But I couldn't find him .
My stepping slowed down as I walked forward only now noticing that I was catching my breath lightly .
3:35
That was the time when I finally spotted him .He told me he wasn't small .
On the grass in the corner under the tree there he was . Laying down with his head resting on his bag his curled up form hiding almost completely under his jacket which he had thrown over himself like a blanket .
He was sleeping. Looking kinda cute without his glasses and lost in his dreams .I could kick him awake or just let him sleep so the time would be wasted and I woudlnt have to talk or work .
But as soon as I stood before him for more then 5 seconds he started to stir .I sighed getting down and he moved a bit more groaning slightly before he opened his eyes flinching back when he saw me .
He sat up grabbing threw his bag to search for something as if he was in panic. He ended up pulling his phone out probably to look at the time only to gasp once he found out .
/"you're over an houre late !/" He whine scolded ?
/"what happened ?? Did someone attack you ? Did teachers scold you?/"
I frowned at his questioning, even more when he looked over me .as if checking for injuries .
/"what's wrong with you ?/"
/"well I hate the colour pink or when someone farts on purpose. I'm allergic to peanuts and negativity, oh and my right eye is blind also I'm shorter then the average-/" I frowned even harder sitting back when I stopped him from continuing /"that's not what I meant and .. what? /"
/"I told you before I'm not small ..
Just shorter than the averag-/"
/"not what I meant again .. /" I sighed somehow just looking at his right eye when j was done /"are you really blind on that eye ?/"
/"this ?/" He pointed to his right right smiling at me /"ah yeah .. long story too long to tell now .. look /" he turned around lifting a bag and placing it between us he pulled out 2 packages of sandwiches /"I got us food since you need money I guessed you aren't coming from a that wealthy family and probably dont have food . Besides that you look skinny I don't like it /"
/"you don't even know me, why would you care /" his eyes flew up to land on mine as he placed one of the packages onto my lap taking the other one himself /"because even fuck off is a alive , should eat and be happy duhh/"
Happy.. that was something I never really paid attention to or cared for ..
I was happy .no I was fine so I didn't need to .
/"so should we start I have a lot of amazing artists but I don't know about you so you have any suggestions I'm sure we can find one we both like/" he bit into his sandwich grabbing papers and a pen as he prepared to write looking expectantly up at me .
I took my sandwich and looked it over shortly /"I don't really like .. artists/"
He almost checked at that and I glared up at him when he laughed a little .my hand just reacted and I through the plastic package at him .
/"sorry .. /" he calmedgravving the package and laying it to his to the side. /"it's just .. who doesn't Like at least one artist /"
/"why the fuck would I like someone i don't even know /" I growled biting into my own sandwich
/"you don't have to be family or friends with someone to like them you know ... /" his own moved in the paper as he started writing and I just rolled my eyes looking around to see what others did.
/"so.. since lonely peanut doesn't have any idol why don't we take bruno mars ? I like his songs and hes funny , he writes all the songs on his own and he sings them too/" his eyes rose from the paper again to look expectantly at me .
/"I don't care /"
He clears his throat angrily /"I'm paying you to do this project with me ! And not sit around until the time is over because you don't care/"
I sighed at that swallowing the rest of the sandwich /"oh yeah let's take bruno mars, he so amazing and hot !/" I imitated him acting fascinated when really I wasn't at all .
He ended up laughing at me like always causing me to roll my eyes .
This is really going to be a pain in the ass.