Everything
#Chapter5 Everything
/"20 .. 40 ... 90 ... and 100/" he handed me the money into my hands .his eyes narrowing once his little bakery plastic bag was empty and he stuck it back into his bag .
/"why don't you have a real little bag for your money? By the way /" I asked him once her stuck his hands through the band of his backpack again .
He shrugg his shoulders putting a smile back onto his face./"waste of money buying a fancy looking little bag wouldnt it ?/"
/"so you rather let it get dirty by the left bread pieces in a plastic bag ?/" I rose an eyebrow as he started walking and I followed besides him .
/"why do you always see things so negative? /" he looked over to me
/"it's like you want to have a bad life /"
Frowning at him I stopped him again
/"who said I have a bad life /"
/"your eyes.. the cursing ..expression-/"
/"shut the fuck up you know nothing /"
He sighed at that looking up
/"he cursed again I should make a 25 cent jar where-/"
/"I should do that too every time you are annoying /" he only giggled at that, something he always did when I called him names or insulted him .
/"being annoying is better than being negative
/"no it's not-/"
/"AHA !so you admit your negative !/" He pointed at me with big eyes as if he busted me . And I questioned myself all over, what on earth was wrong with him .
/"just shut up please /" I sighed .
/"why'd you follow me when you don't want to hear my voice ?/" He smirked at me raising both eyebrows and I can't believe I swallowed at that because he looked funny in a way and I didn't know myself why I just followed him .
/"maby because we were talking /"
/"and you are so polite to not walk off while being in a conversation?/" He still smirked moving his hands to rest on his hips and I honestly didn't find anything to comeback with .. he left me speechless for the first time in .. for the first time someone left me speechless like that .it made me feel nervous and uncomfortable .
/"admit it, peanut you like me ../" he smiled happily /"we laughed a lot over this week i know you do .. told you we would be friends /"
/"we're not and you never said that ..you called me smelly and a stupid peanut /" I backed away when he wanted to hug me .
/"in a friendship you always need to be honest with your friend .. and come on you smell like pee and smoke so /" he went in to hug me again but I held him back with ease a hand on his head as he still reached out to me
/"cooome on ! Don't be such a depressed little peanut !/"
/"depressed ? Little ? Have you looked at yourself ?/" Now he stopped trying to hug me and It was my turn to smirk when he folded his arms tapping his toes to the ground with a serious expression .
He did this for a while just glaring at me .
I sighed rolling my eyes
/"I know .. not small or little just shorter then the average /" a smile appears on his face as I said that and he unfolded his arms .
/"good peanut and now give me a hug /" he spread his arms out but I refused sighing once more when I decided to just end it right there as I decided to walk past him with a chuckle as victory .
I heard his groan in the back and it made me crack a quiet laugh which got cut off when I suddenly felt weight on my back , his feet wrapping around my torso and his arms flying over my shoulder before he gave me a back hug while hanging on me .
/"I would love to be your friend jongin /" he spoke before jumping off of me again while I still stood there frozen because of a to be UNKNOWN reason /"see ya !/" I heard his step out of the noises from all the other students as he walked away .
What a freak ..
What a freak ..
What a freak!
Who the he'll does he think he is ! And he called me jongin too what the fuck .we are not friends I hate him .
I really hate him ..
He's annoying .
His laugh
His talking
This voice !
His stupid positivity
His stupid motivation
That happiness of him
That stupid stupid smile on his face !
Stop thinking of him .
I growled turning around the corner .
The way his lips move when he talks or pouts .. smiles or laughs.
I froze my eyes widening as I stare ahead .
What .
The.
Shit?
No way no no .. I dont no this is not how I think of this boy no . I met him like.. oh god its already been a week ago why does it feel like i've only met him yesterday ? Time wasnt suppose to fly by me like it did now ..
/"jongin /" I flinched turning around quickly somehow still feeling like that boy is hanging on my back. With his legs around my torso and small hands before me . He smelled like sweets tho
Like strawberries or something .
/"jongin ?/"
My eyes drifted downwards again ..
Wait downwards ? Why was I looking up omg ./"jong-/"
/"what? /" I spat cutting her off as she held the band's of her bag hanging from her right shoulder .it was Mrs.xiao oh yeah the Mrs.xiao who did this to me .took the time of 7 days away from me. Because she pitied a small nerd boy .
/"are you ok ?/" She smiled well she tried to hide it in a way and I knew something was up .
/"fucking fine like always /" my eyes scanned her head to toe.
/"what do you want? /"
/"nothing I was just checking on you /" she cleared her throat trying so hard to not smile which made me frown even more /"so how's the project going ?/"
/"fine /" I turned away again and she quickly followed walking besides me .
/"are you working well ?/"
/"yeah /"
/"you're participating too right ?/"
/"yeah /"
/"you splitt the work?/"
/"yeah /"
/"so it's going well ?/"
/"yeah /"
/"he cute right ?/"
/"yeah /"
She was quiet now and I only now realized what answer I had given to what question /"I mean no ! What the fuck ?.. /" I looked at her wearing a weirded out questions but she just smiled this time not pressing it back
/"I'm just saying .. he seems so ...
Pure? Don't you think ?/"
/"not at all, he's just one of those boys who live in their own world full of rainbow ponys and sugar fairies . Until one day they are forced to wake up /" I explained it to her not actually knowing why since I do know her and I know she will just talk against this again .
/"what if you're the one who needs to wake up .. you know I saw you earlier this morning when I looked out of the window of my classroom after you skipped the classes again ..and you were sitting on the grass with him .laughing . Yes you laughed-Dont!/" /"she rose her hand when I was about to say something to cut me off /"even try to deny it ..
You laughed and you know him how Lon now ? a week ? I haven't actually seen you share an actual laugh with anyone else /"
/"many because you don't Know me ! So stop acting like you fucking do !/" I leaned closer to her and she sighed heavily looking to the side .
/"I know you won't understand because your still a stubborn lost boy but please think about this . Doesn't it feel better to actually have fun ?without breaking stuff or smoking cigarettes ? And being so depressed-/"
/"i'm not depressed so shut up, you don't know anything you screwd your life up /" her hand flew to land on my chest as she pished me back .
Inhaling sharply before she glared at me
/"your screwing yours up right now ... how long do you plan on doing this ? What do you think will happen once the police gets involved , you're not a child anymore mummy can't save you out of that . And with all the crimes you did you will land in jail ..
It's not to late to stop turn your back on this finish school and get a decent job /" it almost seemed like she was begging me for it .
/"like you?/" I rose my eyebrows /"no thank you /"
/"you know I like this job and I wanted to become a teacher believe it or not ,and there are other jobs out there asw-/"
/"wait /" I frowned closing my eyes as I just realized something .
This whole thing .her begging me now and suspecting this 'friendship' between me and the strawberry ..
/"you .. this whole fucking project ..
This is about me isn't it ?/" She swallowed once I asked her this.
How did she even know that I was working on the project again last time we spoke she told me to do what I want and I made it clear I didn't want to work on it .
/"oh my god you fucking planned this! Did you think that prick would change me ? Into a better person !?/"
/"he obviously does within first like 3 days already .. look at you not holding a cigarette over longer than 10 minutes-/"
/"shut the fuck up .. you know what fuck this school fuck you , fuck him and fuck this project /" I cursed turning away from her but her hand instantly landed on my arm holding me bacm
/"jongin .. /" she started slow again /"it's true I did ask you to help him because I noticed how .. bright he was but he doesn't know anything of this and he really just wants to save his grades../" not once did my frown fade and her telling me this didn't change my mind the slightest .
When I coldly whispers back to her .
/"I don't care /"
I ripped my arm out of her grasp and stomped off knowing that she probably brushed her tight together hair back like she always did when she was stressed . She was too old for this job and told stupid aswell . Caring is hurting .she shouldn't care about asshole like me and just accept that I will life my life this way rather than ending up hurt or like everyone else with a boring daily job.
I sniffed poking the noodles on my plate around my mum wasn't here .she was out with friends I guess or alone .
Which wouldn't surprise me .
She hated the awkward vibe we just had when eating together just as much as I did . If she were there I would've taken the dish and ate it in my room .
Normally I would listen to music now but my phone was empty so I charged it on the countable since there was no plug nearby whet do sat.
The silence honestly killed me this time .its not suppose to bother me at least I thought so ...
My eyes drifted up to see the standing out spots on the orange wall . The wall was orange once but now it was more like a mix between yellow orange and white due to the fading over the years but the spots where the old pictures once hung , they were still clear orange. As if she had took them down yesterday when in real it was much longer .
It would be a lie if I said I was happy she took them down yet I couldn't say that it made me sad eithet
Ding
I turned my head now glancing at the bright screen of my phone letting me know I got a message .
From ..who ? Chat ?
Fuck I forgot .
Instantly i got to my feet walking over to my phone to read what message I have gotten
Unknown
Hiii peanut !
It's me kyungsoo, a girl gave me your number sorry I wanted to ask you myself but I forgot opsey� Sounds stupid since we're working together for i think a week but now that we are finally friends I rememberd
I just wanted to tell you that I can't be at school tomorrow so we can meet after your done just ring at my door after 12 pm jk /"am/" ofcorse hehe
Here's my address **(address)**
See you then�❤
Oh no .. he has my number .
He has my number .and who the hell told him that i was his friend because i sure as hell didnt .. who the fuck does he think he is ? God hes
Damn he has my number now I'll never get him off of me ..
And why is he not coming to school tomorrow ? If he's sick then he wouldn't tell me to still meet him after school right .. Well his voice was a little bit raspy today and he sniffed a lot ..a lot ? No just a few times he does it so loud that's it's so obvious and when he squeezes he would completely bend over or hold it back by making a grimace ...
Should I reply ? ..
Nah .
What if he will reply again and then we would end up talking and that's the last thing I want now .
Fuck right , chat dieg and sye the money
To chat:
Sorry forgot to bring the money
Am on my way to the bridge .
I looked over the screen spotting how my batteries I had left .
23% that would have to be enough . I will just bring the money and then return .