(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

i cant believe the whole drive to the address had made me nervous.

i hadnt thought of it . i had flrgotten that dieg,chat and sye wanted more money. Another 100 each day. theres noway he will do that right ?

he paid me 900 for a week which was kjnd of crazy but he wouldn't do that again .. right?

A sigh left my lips as I turned the radio up .I have nothing to be worried of nervous about. I don't care about him and if he says no then that ain't my problem. I'm not scared of him.

My hands reached out to the passenger seat going through the pocket to pull the cigarette package out .keeping my eyes on the road .

I opening the tip to reveal all 20 cigarettes complete .. I blinked disbelieved.. I had bought them yesterday.

/"look at you not holding a cigarette for longer than 10 minutes/"

That's bullshit .. I just forgot it's a coincident .

Fucking