(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

My hand moved nervously around the steering wheel I felt awful .

I knew , I know I was an asshole the worst kind but I never cared until now .never had I felt guilty for shit I've done but this time I did .

I swallowed looking onto the passenger seat at the evidence of what I did .

When I opened my eyes the next morning . I blinked a few times before glancing down..

he was still sleeping in my arms looking completely exhausted And hungover.

his lips were still a little swollen .

My hand landed on his cheek and he shifted a little moving his head and pulling his knees further up .

That's when I spotted his bag on the ground . Besides the car. I don't know what gave me the idea maybe i was just curious or maybe bored .

Hate