(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

It was dark when I woke up to a whinning .. no a whimpering .soft yet desperate carrying fear witth it.

It was in the middle of the night whaaat the he'll was going on .

I turned on the bed releasing a sigh once I faced the other side .

It was quite hot as well so I decided to remove the blanket .But right when I did something pulled the blanket further away. I wanted to not mind but then he had to open his mouth and I realized that it was him ...

I turned around again blinking through my dry eyes to get a better view in the darkness .

I didn't need to see clearly to notice how his form was trembling under the blanket he cuddled and coverd himself with .his legs pulled closer to himself as he clung to the staffs on the hospital bed.

Night Fears