(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

He was still staring right back at me when I looked down at him wanting nothing more than to

Have him right here, right now . I was carving him .feeling something I've never felt before .

But before I could even lean down to him to let those plump lips met mine .

His hand on my shoulder when he held me back gently .. as if he had snapped me out of it then .

/"j-jongin .. you don't understand this .. you can't /"

I moved back at that frowning at him .. But he was gay as far as I rememberd he admitted that he had feelings before the beating before he forgot it all .

It was me who wasn't sure if I had feelings, hell I didn't even know I was gay for all that matter .I've only ever fucked girls in my life .

Before I could even continue he just slipped away rushing out through the door in a rush.

My hands moved up running through my messy hair .

Do you know now ?