(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

/"why did that guy call you dyo ?/"

His smile faded a little when he leaned back again but I turned my head to keep my eyes on him .

/"it's just a nickname because of my last name-/"

/"your last name is doh not dyo save the bullshit /" I spat before he could even continue .

/"jongin he was drunk out of his mind don't care so much /" he's clearly playing it off but I have too many questions and I'm not feeling like playing it off .

/"your mum called you that too /"

He swollowed now. I could tell he was nervous now that I wasn't afraid to hide that I was interested .Now that I didn't hold back anymore because I made up my mind as difficult as it was to accept it . I did feel something for him and yes I know he's a boy .

It's weird that I even like the fact that he's male . I don't think I would have fallen for him this way if he were a girl.

Doh Dyo