(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

It was already pretty dark when we drove with the bus to the place where he was suppose to meet someone .

I didn't question him anymore and just followed him .

He didn't say anything anymore either . He tried to hold my hand but I didn't want . I didn't feel like holding his hand at the moment.

So we rather drove in silence but it wasn't awkward or anything . He seemed pretty lost in thoughts when he stared out the window looking at all the passing houses and eventually trees .

And I did the same somehow I also prepared myself for a fight whoever I was going to meet it will end with a lot of questions maybe even fightings.

Still ... He wouldn't introduce me to someone which he had cheated on or which he had used to cheat on me .

Or was he just out doing the same as his mother ? I can't imagen that . I won't. He's different in so many ways than his mother. I know he would never.

My Boyfriend