(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

/"what do you mean ?/" Her voice was a bit more clearer but as for me .. I was panicking quietly bearly being able to suppress it in my voice as I had explained it all to her ofcorse leaving the details out to not make her question it .

I wanted to walk out like I always did and return to him sleeping and acting as if it was nothing but at the sane time I didn't want to leave him alone hurting again .

I just turned away facing the mirror of the living room while he was still in oure room .I didn't want to run away from something I was too afraid to face ...

/"jongin listen to me ... not everyone is like you. Maybe he doesn't even want you to tell him comfortive stuff , maybe he just wants you to be there for him like I tried to be there for you /" she explained to me softly . Clearly noticing how unsteady I was like she always did .

/"yeah well your method worked well /" I spoke in sarcasm and i heard her sigh after it .