(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

In the middle of the night, just waiting to call it morning as the sun had already shown it's first few colours .

I was dead tired as I took the last few steps up and walked along the hall until i've reached the door I had been heading towards to .

Hesitant I glanced onto the ring of flowers that was hanging on the door.

I was confused since I felt like I wanted to go back inside and talk things out like normal fucking pussy people would do or at lest argue with him or anything..

Yet i felt like i wanted to leave him behind already , now that nothing was holding me back anymore my mum wasn't here and kyungsoo ...

I had a key to this flat In the bag of my jacket and I told myself that that was the reason I came back here once more. Because I was just returning the key and taking my stuff .

Unwanted