(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

The flat was cold by now from the cold wind from outside but also from the silence here, I had opened all the windows to release the smell . Threw the soaked mattress away and his dirty clothes aswell . I couldn't stand the blood mixed with puke . I just couldn't it was the same with all the pills and things from his drawers . I threw most of it away flushed it down the toilet and only put things like plasters and creams back .

I didn't want to see any pills right now.

Everything else the ground and so on I had now cleaned but he didn't move a single bit even when I was done and took a seat besides him to just watch him . He didn't move at all he did nothing but breath the slightest bit .

I had never wished for him to annoy me like he used to beforeeverything turned out like this as much as I had wished for it now .

Look at me and tell me some weird things you'd like to do .

Those 50 bugs