(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

#Chapter39 What I want \& What I need

He said he wanted to go out .. he was sick and tired but he wanted to go out .

The wind was crashing into the car as I sadly looked over to him in the passenger seat , he had his hand reached out gently letting the wind stroke his palm and fingers. The tattoo of his evidently revealed , he had been staring and looking at it all day I guess the way how it's going to be scarred over again made him feel down .

We hadn't talked a word ,maybe he was suspecting that I had cheated that night or maybe he was just still depressed from his suicide attempt and the thought of being unwanted

All he told me was that he wanted to go out not a single smile was spent and it terrified me it made me feel awful .

Taking the bus we had arrived at my home and taken my car since where he wanted to go was nowhere reachable with the bus .

He said the fields way way outside of the city.

What I want & What I need