(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

/"w-what ?/" He sat back with a saddened expression as he looked at me confused yet scared and I sat up to face him too now .

/"do you think I'm stupid ?/" I spat frowning angrily. This was his fault I never worried about the topic sex I've always had sex, I enjoyed it !

/"n-no! /" he stutterd back seeming quite nervous yet scared as if he was afraid to be saying the wrong words .

ever since I met him the real him it was never the same anymore the closer he got to me the more i lost interest in it. I can't even imagen myself doing it with a girl now anymore. I can't imagen myself doing it with anyone anymore

That boy was just an attempt to force it like it was the first time when I fucked him . And I knew I only had because I imagined he was kyungsoo because their bodies were similar.

Kyungsoo had changed me in too many ways and I hated it all of a sudden, it made me realize what I have become now .

He's Beautiful