(( There's a sequel following but it doesnt end in tension ))


Merely a punk .
That's all I was, an idiot 
telling myself, convincing myself that the world is only a dark broken place. 
The only friends I had were my cigarettes, the drug dealers. Now and then some beers .

I never planned anything or cared for anything since I always knew how pointless everything was . I was one human out of a millions. My existence wasn't worth more than than an ants. 
It's merely a waste of time.

It has always been dark .

until I met a spark.

Beautiful and pure . Something so rare and special that I couldn't take my eyes off of him . Yes him. 
I hated him for changing me .

But No matter how much I tried to push him away .
He wouldnt leave, because he knew me better than I did myself 
he knew I needed him . 
But he needed me too.

Man they thought I was fucked up .
But it's the ones who don't show .

My name is Kim Jongin and 
this isn't my story

It's Do Kyungsoos .

Intoxic Dose (kaisoo) 

I still stood straight looking down onto him while he kept smiling . And once he figured out I won't be able to say it back or say anything at all .his hand stretched out taking mine .

/"it's ok I know this is weird to you you don't need to accept it .. and i'm not expecting you to say it back ..

I just want you to know that i'm ready to wait for you /" his smile softened a little when I felt him pulling on my hand .

I ended up sitting down besides him ready to reply but the doctor enterd. Cutting me off .

He told kyungsoo to sit back to lay his foot up but once his foot was revealed so openly and the doc moved closer , he started clutching my hand tightly as the doc started examing his cut tapping around it to check for whatever the fuck .

Seeking