A FALLEN ANGEL

Angels fell, and so did my life,

As I stumbled around looking for a way out.

You were the center of my universe,

That happiness was all I ever had,

Left me feeling hopeless too.

Months have gone,

And I now feel pitiful, frustrated, and emotionally numb.

You made me feel so loved,

But now I'm torn apart.

My veins were damaged, and I developed bruises.

I yearned for this suffering to end.

I once assured you that I will improve,

But believe me when I say that things are only getting harder.

You stole the roses from me and left the thorns for me to bleed,

Now all I have is a suicidal dream.

I've never had a fair shot at life.

I have envied you a lot of times.

Therefore, lying at this time would be pointless.

In ways I could never adequately express, I have loved and treasured you.

That moving on was extremely challenging.

But now everything is just a waste of space.

The fact that you're not here hurts so much.

However, I continue to assure you I'm alright.

However, you never really seemed to notice how hurt I am.

From the time I can remember, I have had depression.

If I'm not mistaken, since age six.

No one needs to know everything,

But you abandoned me in a place, I could never replace with happiness.

I hate you so much for leaving me in this state.

You took my place and brought in something better,

Where the darkness had grown to be my addiction.

I claim that I'm not an addict.

Simply a habit.

However, there are situations when becoming hooked to something outweighs the risk of harm.

My thoughts are disorganized,

Perhaps it would be best if I simply vanished forever.

Although I hate to say it, I do miss you.

I do, however, love you, and that will never change.

So, I bid you goodbye.