Showering and laying down didn’t make me feel any better about my failure with the pups. Mordecai’s words kept surfacing in my mind every time I closed my eyes.
I ended up not sleeping that night, which shocked Wendy when she came the morning after with my breakfast.
I knew he’s cruel. I knew he’s cold. I knew I shouldn’t expect even an ounce of sympathy or kindness from a wolf who killed his father and exiled his mother, but he’s my mate. I am his mate. Our bond’s strong and electrifying and crucial for Nox.
He can’t just treat me like...air.
When he did, it hurt. It made my heart ache in a way it never had before, and the emptiness I would feel in my stomach only made itself more known. Mate bonds, when neglected, are torture. I heard it was rough when you had a stronger bond, but I didn’t think it would be this bad.
I looked haunted in the mirror as Wendy dressed me for the day. My skin had ever been so pale before, and my hair looked limp and flat.