CH 5 : STUPID GAME

The whole night after i came back from the club dropping jeena home i was only thinking about magnus . His light green eyes like emerald, his brown hair , his soft lips , his tan skin colour and clean shave jaw line and those full set of abs .

Ahhhh i shouldn't have done that i regret all of this he is - he is dangerous.. sigh... i went too deep in this and i need to come out of this ocean of pleasure..

i wish i don't meet him ever again . First i should block his number. I hesitate but i block it and now i will do anything so that we don't meet each other ever again and if i meet him ever again and i feel something about him or if he tells me that he feels something about me , i will make him regret ever meeting me or i will make him hate me and that way only i will be able to suppress these stupid feelings for both of us . I bang my head on the pillow i don't want to play these stupid games of feelings .

I never liked these fucking stupid games which involved my feelings in past i thought i can control my feelings when i played those dirty games of killing people without bating an eye but i just couldn't but after than also my father Carlo Solace the king of Italy mafia pushed me to play these games , he knew how fucking depressed and numb i got then also he never stopped this torture of playing with my feelings . On one of my mission i had to take a chip which involved all of father's dirty work from a guy who got that chip accidentally and he never asked anything in return for the chip so i thought it was a simple mission but i was suspicious cause my father sent one of his men with me and when i asked why he said to protect me , i was shocked cause when i went on a mission of life and death he didn't even cared to look at me but now why is he so caring.

we went to the guy's house and he was a simple guy his wife of pregnant and he had a 4 year old kid who was so cute . He gave me the chip and as i was walking to the door of his house to go out but i heard a gun shot and a scream of a women when i ran back inside i saw that my father's men holding a gun and the guy was shot dead and her wife was screaming while kneeling down looking at her dead husband's body and her four year old boy was crying looking at his sad mother and numb dad . My tears were streaming down my cheeks from anger , i notice the guy still holding the gun so i ran and hit him from back making his fall down and i took his fallen gun and shot him 3 times without bating an eye .

The women beside me got a scared and held her belly and her 4 year old boy . I squatted down and told her i am so sorry while crying i am so sorry all my frustration and sadness came out at that moment it was a breaking point and i said i am not going to hurt you insted i will help you get out of this place where no one will harm you and your childrens and i will give you money to support your children and i will set a funeral for your husband too and i did so too . My father was suspicious at first when i told him that the women shot the men and ran away with her child but when i told him i feel connection of some gang he believed me cause he thought i had no reason to lie to him but he was wrong, very wrong.

The day the women whose name was Linda gave birth to her child in London was the day she died while giving birth to her beautiful baby boy and when i heard this i took my private jet to London from Italy ; when i asked the hospital what was the reason they said she was really weak and her body couldn't take it so she died , i asked the caretaker to take the baby home , i didn't even take a look at the baby cause i was the one who took his mom and dad away from him . As we reached Linda's home the four year old boy James comes jumping towards me and hugs me tight and i start crying he notices it and wipes my tears and asks 'why are you crying?'

how can I tell him her mom died instead i asked did you meet your baby brother and he says yes 'he is so tiny and so soft i will play with him but where is mommy ? she didn't come with you ?'

'she is tired after giving you a brother so she is in hospital resting '

'Ok' he kisses my cheek and runs to his baby brother room to sleep . When both of them fella sleep , i went to the guest room to freshen up and came out to eat dinner with care taker who i kept to look after Linda and James .

Her name was Sara she says after having dinner 'i pity these boys so much they don't even know that they have lost everything they had'

'i will never be able to live with this sin '

'it was not your fault maria, it was your father who will compaste for the sin he committed '

'hmmmm'

'The doctor said Linda was weak '

' yes she was and she knew it too , she didn't eat food much and was always crying while looking out of the window all day and i asked her to eat food atleast for the sake of her baby but i guess she was growing weak mentally ; she was tired and sad after her husband 's death '

'right , who wouldn't be ? i wish i could have change everything for her '

'you tired your best Maria even though it was your father's fault but when a person losses the hope to live you can't do anything about it'

'hmmm' and i sigh .

i fall sleep after some moment of tossing in my bed but in middle of the night i hear a crash i jolt up take my gun and go out in the leaving room to see my brother Jason sitting on the coach and standing infront of him was Sara who looked scared. my brother looks at me and says 'O my Maria '

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what do you think her brother is here for ?🤔