Bokuto 11

I took a deep breathe before I had the courage to take a step and enter that place where my most precious person is going to exchange vows with the person he chose to be with. To the person that is now who owns his heart.

The person who revived him.

The person who stayed with him when he's trying to fix his life.

The person he run away with, from Eden.

The person who is not me.

I smiled when I met his gaze right after I entered the room where he is waiting for the wedding to start. It's been a year since I last saw Akaashi. I got injured in a match so I have to do physical therapy and since my coach in MSBY has a physical therapist relative, he recommended me to go in the Philippines to do my therapy there. It should be a six-month treatment but I asked for extension. And since they knew what I've been going through, they let me. But in exchange, I have to babysit my coach's niece while I stayed there for free and she's a real psycho.

"It's been a while, Bokuto-san." Akaashi said with a sweet smile plastered on his lips. The smile that I've always wanted him to give me. And now that he did, it doesn't make me happy at all. In fact, I feel lonelier now because that smile is not the same smile that I've always wanted to get.

That sweet smile that he gave to me is meant just for a friend.

I tried to hide my pain by smiling back at him because Akaashi looked really happy. His eyes beams with happiness. The happiness that I only see when he's with Osamu Miya, the man who take him away from his sadness.

"Yeah, it's been a while. You look good." I said without hiding the admiration in my eyes. Even though he's a guy, he really looked beautiful in his white tuxedo.

Akaashi's face flushed with embarrassment that made me chuckled and a pair of arms immediately embraced him. I met Osamu Miya's scowl that made his twin, Tsumu and Hinata laugh on how he reacted.

"Easy bro! Bo-kun won't take away your groom." Tsum-Tsum said that made me shook my head because of Osamu's reaction. I wouldn't succeed anyway even if I ask Akaashi to run away with me because he looked so deeply in love with Osamu.

I can see it on his blue-eyes.

"He's mine now so stop making my Akaashi blush." Osamu said with annoyance on his voice before he looked at Akaashi who has an amuse expression on his face. "And you! Why are you blushing? Stop blushing if it's not me who tells you how beautiful you are!"

Akaashi raised his brows but on his lips, plastered a playful smile. "Why? Are you jealous?"

Osamu pouted. "I am." He answered truthfully before he looked at me. "That owl was the first one who saw how beautiful you are today. Of course, I'll be jealous."

We all laughed on how childish Akaashi's groom is. But somehow, I could see why Akaashi choose him. He's more honest to his feelings than me. And I admit that it's still painful.

To see the smile that is meant for the person he loves.

"You guys ready? The wedding is about to start." Omi-kun asked when he entered the room with his usual annoyed expression.

Osamu went out first followed by Tsumu and Hinata. And again, I was left alone with the prettiest setter that I've ever laid my eyes on. He looked at me with a gentle look on his face and on his lips was the sincerest smile that I've ever seen.

"Thank you for coming, Bokuto-san." He said with sincerity before he held my hand and looked straight to my eyes. "I'm glad that you're here to celebrate with me, the happiest moment of my life."

I smiled sweetly trying to hold back the tears that has been wanting to escape in my eyes. "No. Thank you. For letting me be part of it. For letting me celebrate with you the happiest moment of your life. Knowing what I did in the past. How I hurt you."

Akaashi gently cupped my face to wipe the tears that escaped my eyes. "You're not the one in wrong, Bokuto-san. I hope that one day, you'll meet the person who is really meant for you. And I hope that you should stop blaming yourself. We're both victims. Please forget all the bad things that happened between us."

Akaashi hugged me tight. And it felt so warm. Even though it's just a couple of seconds, his warmth resides inside me and melt the block of ice that's covering my stone-cold heart. He pulled away and turn to leave the room.

"Akaashi..." I called and he looked back at me.

I smiled sweetly at him. "I love you..." Akaashi looked surprised but he remained silent as if he's waiting for my final words.

I sighed. "I love you but I'm ending it now."

Akaashi smiled and nod at me before he finally left the room to meet his greatest love and exchange vows with him. I cried for a little while before I had the courage to leave the room just to be surprised when I saw the psycho niece of my coach that I forgot that she came here with me. She's leaning right beside the door waiting for me with dreamy eyes as she watched Akaashi marched in the aisle with Osamu.

"Now, I know why you love Moira's song." She said without looking at me. She's talking about the singer in the Philippines that I keep on listening to every night.

I sighed and looked to where she's looking at and had a bittersweet smile plastered on my lips before as I watched Akaashi exchange vows with Osamu.

"You were my euphoria in my midst of melancholia. You gave me haven when I was in pain. You hate the rain, but that night when you saw me suffering, you held my hand tightly and walked in the rain with me. You gave me the brightest star when I lost my light. You revived me. You gave me a new life. And now, you're giving me your whole life." Akaashi has a thankful smile on his lips as tears welled up on his beautiful eyes.

"I can't promise to love you perfectly, but I will love you unconditionally. You are my melanphoria. You are my happiness, as well as my sadness. Without you I am incomplete – with you, life became a gift. I love you Osamu. You are God's greatest gift."

Akaashi finished telling his vow that not only made the man he said those words to, cry. Everyone in this place tear up on how sincere his words are. Osamu held Akaashi's hand trying to hold back his tears as he says his vow.

"I fell in love with you at first sight. To be honest, I don't believe in love at first sight. I called my twin, lame when he told me that he fell in love at first sight to Hinata. But little did I know, I too, will fell in love with you at first sight, the same day. When I saw you smile, while staring from afar, I already knew this is love. I tried. God knows how many times I tried to forget you, but I just can't. That's why, when I saw you enduring all the pain, I knew that I shall have you. That I shall protect you." Osamu wiped the tears that escaped his eyes and continued.

"I promise to trust you more, to believe your love more and love you more. You are a culmination of a dream come true. To be honest, I still can't believe that I'm standing here with you, exchanging vows with you. You, loving me is just a dream for me. You were my melanphoria, and always will be. Your happiness is my happiness. Your sadness is my sadness. Without you I am empty – with you, I'm looking forward to life. I love you Keiji, my Aachi. You are God's greatest creation."

Osamu ended his vow and without warning, Akaashi grabbed his nape and kissed him lovingly that made all the guests shout in happiness that even the official in charge of their wedding couldn't help but smile to see how they both love each other regardless of their gender. As for me, I wiped the tears that escaped my eyes though a sincere and happy smile is plastered on my lips before I turned my back to leave even though the ceremony isn't over yet. Even though my chest feels heavy after I took back my heart from Akaashi, I am happy for them.

For him, for Akaashi.

"Did you regret letting go?" My coach's niece asked as she followed me on my way to the parking lot.

"I did. A part of me did. But..."

I stopped and turn around to look at her. She bumped to my chest that made her small lips pout like a kid while brushing her forehead. There are times that this psycho looks cute but most of the time, she's so damn annoying because of her antics.

"But?"

I sighed. "I already accept the fact that I am just his beginning, but not his ending."

She smiled sweetly at me and brushed off the tears that escaped my eyes before he cupped my face gently. "Freeing yourself from cupid's hateful and cruel arrow is hard, but you did a great job, Koutarou."

Before I could even react, she already turned her back on me to find the car we used to come here. And it might sound absurd but with those small and delicate hands, the heaviness in my chest lightened.

"Hey, Koutarou!" I turned to her when she called my name normally while she's walking backwards.

"What? Stop walking like that, you might trip." I shouted back as I followed her every step.

"I have a question!" She said without heeding my advice. My eyes widened when a car from behind, pulling over is about to bump her. I rushed to her and pulled her to me that made us fall off the ground with her on top of me.

"You really are a psycho!" I exclaimed in annoyance. My heart almost jumped of its cage because I thought that she will get hit.

I saw her pulling stunts that would hurt herself before when I just accepted my coach's favor to look after this emotionally unstable niece of his while I'm in the Philippines because her parents are both gone and that their other relatives doesn't really give a damn to her because of her weirdness.

"If I weren't me. Do you think we could be?" She asked instead while on her lips plastered the sweetest smile I've ever seen since we got acquainted. She's used to give a fake smile to everyone but this smile of her now, is the sincerest smile I've ever seen.

"What the hell are you talking about you, psycho?!" I whispered trying to act normal even though my heart races because of those words she just told me. Her warmth is slowly creeping in me, making me feel a different kind of sensation that I never felt before.

It's scary and at the same time...comforting.

Her warmth is.

"I have a name, Koutarou. Don't call me by my pen name or I will kiss you." She warned while talking about the name that she used as pen name that made chuckled because of how bold she is. She's a writer. A weird, emotionally unstable, romance and mystery crime, writer.

"Your pen name suits you though. Yakō-sei No Saiko-"

My words got cut off by her trembling lips. She had her eyes closed while pressing her lips on mine that almost made me laugh. I grabbed both of her arms and pushed her away. She opened her eyes and looked at me like she lost to something but didn't say a word and just pushed me away so she can stand but I didn't let her go.

"Is that it? You called that a kiss?" I teased that made her looked away from me, and even though her skin is tan, - a typical Filipina complexion, I could see her face blushed with embarrassment.

I cupped her chin and make her face me. "Let me show you how it is properly done, you Saiko." I said before closing the gap between our lips and gently brushed mine into her while in my head, I prayed.

Dear God, if she's the one destined for me... make it rain.

And as if on cue...

Droplets of water starts pouring one by one on us, just right after the loud applause and cheers was heard from the place that we came from. And that made me smile in between our kisses.

Goodbye, my sanity...

Hello, my insanity...