Osamu 15

It's just been a day. Just a fuckin day, but it feels like an eternity since I left our home. I've been agitated all day because Akaashi never once messaged or call me. It's understandable because I gave him time to think about it but...

Fuck! Why did I even tell him to think about it? I should've just convinced him to stay! Fuck! Stupid Osamu! You're so damn stu-

"Stupid." Atsumu finished what's running on my mind for me. He looked at me with a mocking expression as if telling me how stupid I am for letting the one and only chance I had to slip just like that.

"Fuck you!" I said angrily that made him grimaced with my choice of words to insult him back.

"Gross! That's incest dude! And even if you're not my twin, I would never fuck you! Eww!" He said that annoyed the shit hell out of me.

Hinata laughed to our usual bickering that made me wander how he can live with this annoying twin of mine. I scowled when Atsumu went and sit beside Hinata who's currently reading a manga, hugged him lovingly as if he's making me regret what I said to Akaashi last night.

I went to the guest room in my annoyance to their display of affection and wallowed myself to self pity and regret. I tried to erase in mind what his old teammate told me before but the way Akaashi acts last night, I could feel that he won't choose me. It's already dark but I never heard anything from him. I didn't contact him too because I'm afraid that he's just waiting for me to call or message him first before he tells me his decision.

The anxiety is killing me but whatever his decision is, I know that I will just only accept it. Just like what I told Tsumu last night when he asked my why I made Akaashi decide.

"Hey stupid! would you mind buying a beer at the convenience store?" Atsumu asked that made me stop torturing myself for overthinking things on what would happen to my relationship with Akaashi.

"Damn you! I'm not your servant!" I exclaimed in annoyance but still stand up from laying on my bed to get my jacket and my wallet to buy a drink. Afterall, I also want a drink myself.

"Hey Samu!" Atsumu stopped me when I'm about to go. He has a serious look on his face that somehow annoys me because he rarely acts like this. And I don't like it because whatever that will come out to that filthy mouth of his will break or make me.

"What?" I scowled.

He smiled and brushed my hair like an older brother. "Even you're annoying as hell, I want you to know that I'm rooting for your happiness." He said before he went back to Hinata's side as if nothing happened.

I chuckled and went out of their home feeling a little bit happy. It somehow lessened my worries. And his words of encouragement almost made me tear up. It's so unlike him. When he saw me with Akaashi, he accused me as someone who's taking someone else's lover but now, he's rooting for me. And even though I'm still anxious, somehow those words of his, makes me feel a little bit braver.

Braver to face what will be Akaashi's decision.

Because I know that I still have him and our friends. Afterall, what I want is for Akaashi to be happy. That didn't change. I still want him to have that sweet and genuine smile, plastered on those pale, thin lips of his.

I sighed and looked up from staring at the ground that I'm walking just to be surprised when I saw a gorgeous, sweet and sincere smile plastered on those pale thin lips. From a man waiting under the street lamp while holding a grocery bag on his arms.

"You took your time coming here. Don't you want to hear my answer?" He asked with a flushed face. I stoned on my feet.

Dear God, I know I said that I will be braver to accept his decision but I never said that I'm ready to hear it right away.

I prayed in mind that made Akaashi laughed hiding his mouth with his hands. And that sight is so damn mesmerizing for me. Specially with that fox ring on his finger. It really suits him perfectly-

Wait! What?

Akaashi walked to me and stopped just a step away from me with a sweet smile on his lips. I just stand in front of him with a dumb expression. I couldn't believe that he's wearing the ring I gave him.

"I'm over him."

Three words.

It's just three words.

But it's enough to make all my anxieties disappear.

"I pick you." Akaashi continued.

Three words, eight letters.

And it's enough to totally relieved me from the pain that his former teammate inflicted to me.

"But I know words better than that. Afterall, four-words is better than three." He said before wiping the tears that I didn't know that I shed.

"You're my new world." Akaashi whispered while looking at me with so much love and sincerity.

"You're my true melanphoria." He said before putting down what the grocery bag he's holding and hug me tight.

"I will marry you." Akaashi whispered in my ear.

And that's the end of me.

The end of Osamu Miya's misery.

The end of my anxiety.

Because finally...

I can finally...

Keep Akaashi, properly.

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The moon is shining brightly even inside our room. Akaashi is just patiently laying naked on our bed, while waiting for me as I take off all my clothes and joined him in bed.

It's cold. The night of December is so damn cold but tonight, as I lay on our bed beside him, with our bodies gently pressed with each other and our lips interlocked with each other, tongue pleasing one another....

It feels warm.

Warm. Intoxicating. Melting. Soothing. Satisfying.

It's what I feel while I gently brushed my hand on Akaashi's delicate body that keeps on arching in my every touch as we both whispered on each other how much we love one another.

Akaashi's face reddened when I didn't take my eyes away from him while I pleasure him with my mouth. He didn't look away like he usually does and just locked gazes with me as if he's trying to embed to his mind how I make him moan, how I caress him gently.

I moved up when he came in my mouth and positioned myself on top of him. He pulled me closer and kissed me almost crushing my lips with his sweet and passionate yet aggressive kiss. I grabbed his hair gently and pushed my tongue inside his mouth as I moved and thrust inside him a little bit roughly making his body jerked in surprised.

"Are you hurt?" I asked worriedly when tears welled up on his flushed face, but Akaashi just shook his head and pulled me closer to his body and whispered.

"It feels good...Myaa-sam."

I almost cum when he said those words that made him chuckled when he saw my pained expression. I want to devour him slowly but he's so cunning making it hard for me to do so. I slowly move inside him, sending tingling sensation all over my body. And the intoxicating feeling is slowly infiltrating my whole system, making it hard for me to keep my head cool.

I felt Akaashi's nail on my back but the pain just adds the electrifying sensation gave by our body being intertwined with each other. I moved a little bit faster, making us drown in ecstasy more. His eyes flutter when our hot gazes met and I almost tear up seeing those loving blue-eyes that stares at me and nothing but love and happiness is written on it.

"I love you...Keiji..." I whispered as I slowly reached my peak. Akaashi entwined his legs on my hips when I tried to pull out to release it outside because he didn't make me use a condom again.

"Keiji...damn..."

"Cum inside...Myaa-sam." He demands that made me explode. Made Akaashi quiver in pleasure when I released my seed inside him, with eyes brimming with tears. I kissed the corner of his softly before I pulled out and lay down beside him, while holding his hand that has the fox ring on it.

"I love you, Aachi-chan." I whispered softly and kissed his hand with my ring on it. Akaashi looked at me lovingly and gently touch my face.

"I'm hurt, Myaa-sam." Akaashi said sadly that worried me.

"I'm deeply hurt when you left me to that place with a look like you're about to cry. It puts me in pain. It's totally different when Bokuto-san is deliberately hurting me. It's a different kind of pain that I never felt before." Akaashi continued that made me speechless.

"Are you really willing to let me go if I choose to leave? You won't even stop me?" He asked that made me sigh and nods.

"Why?"

I clasped his hands with mine and looked at me with a sad look on my face. "He is your melanphoria, just like how you're mine as well. I won't stop you from leaving because I know that if you really want to stay with me, you'll stay. I love you too much. That I'm willing to sacrifice my own happiness just for you to get yours. I don't want to lock you up in a relationship that won't make you happy. Because just like I said, I only want you to be happy. Your happiness is my happiness."

Akaashi smiled sweetly and kissed my hand. "I really pick the correct person to love."

My brows creased so he explained.

"There are three types of love. A destructive love. It's what Bokuto-san and I has. We both love each other to the point that it's damaging us both. A selfish love. Which Konoha, my former teammate has for me. He loved me selfishly that made me run way from him. And a sweet, genuine and melanphoric love. It's what you and I have for each other." Akaashi explained.

He sighed and moved a little closer to my embrace.

"I thought what I had with Bokuto-san is Melanphoria. But I realized that what I felt for him is not a true Melanphoria. But what I have for you is the true melanphoria." Akaashi looked at me in the eyes with a sweet smile on lips.

"You can say that what you feel is a true melanphoria when that person you gave your heart to wholeheartedly is both the cause of your sadness and happiness, and not because he caused you sadness and happiness. When you're sad, anxious or in pain, I am too. And when you're happy, I am too Myaa-sam." I pressed my lips on his forehead because what he said is true.

"It's overwhelming." I said that made him smile because I used his own words. "Your love is."

"Aishiteru, Akaashi Keiji." I whispered lovingly before I claimed his lips that he responded in equal manner. We pulled away a little when we run out of breath and stare at each other's eyes.

"Miya Osamu..." He called my full name in a formal tone.

"Koishiteru."