Chapter Thirty seven

I cracked my eyes open, everywhere was a blur. I closed my eyes again and open it this time, I saw Nancy staring down at me with a worried face, "you're awake she whispered. I tried smiling at her but felt numb, forcing myself up. I used my eyes to scan the room " your mum would be back soon" I turned to look at her and saw tears in her eyes. Of course, she was pitying me, I was expelled in my fourth year's in medical school and also Sam........ He couldn't leave me, maybe he dropped by when I was asleep, or was he still angry at me. "Sam! I whispered. " Did he come" I watch as tears flow down her eye? "He's still angry at me" I muttered covering my face with my palms" And also I have brought disgrace to my parents, I..i.I was their only hope" I sobbed letting Nancy pat and put me back to sleep. This time I woke up but I kept my eyes close, I couldn't bear to open my eyes again, to see all those people that I have disappointed and brought pain on. How could this happen to me, everything was going well till the supervisor ruin my life. I felt my chest tighten, I just wish myself death, how will I be able to show my face again. "She suffering" I heard mum speak "She's leaving in regret" her voice broke into sob but she kept her voice down not to wake up "I want a better future for her, not this" I slowly open my eyes and saw a dad holding her on in his arm as she sobbed. 

When I decided to come downstairs the next day, I saw mum in the kitchen. I stood there watching her, she had tried so much but what did I give in return "Becca! Mum called drawing me out from my thought " I prepared your favorite" she smiled beckoning me to the kitchen. I stepped inside sitting on the mini dining there, as she dropped the food in front of me. "You should it to gain some strength, you're looking lean" on other conditions I will devour the food and ask for mum but no looking at it now I don't even have an appetite . I just stare at the food and ask the only question that pops into my mind "will Dad ever forgive me" I saw her stiff for a moment before coming to embrace me. "Your Dad is not angry with you.....he just.....hurt....for now, Becca!  " I have disappointed myself and also you guys"  "it okay" I pushed her gently away from me. "I don't think I deserve to live! I don't think I deserve your forgiveness or father's" I shook my head and let the tears fall. Running outside, I don't know where I should go or run to. How could I be so stupid to hurt them this way, feeling dizzy, I looked for a nearby wall to lean my weight, I took a few breaths to calm my spinning head. "Hey, Rebecca! I heard someone called looking up it was one of Dad's friends who drove a taxi  " Ate you alright" he asked popping his head out from his taxi. I nodded at him forcing a smile to my face. "Ca...can you please drop me somewhere?" I asked  "sure, sure come inside, he opened the car to let me in. " it been a while I have seen you" he said I wasn't in the mood to answer him but I forced myself to speak. "Yeah it has" with this I leaned my head and the seat of his car thinking about where I was going

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Love from Casey ❤️