Chapter Fifty fivr

I huddled myself tightly on the couch, even when I heard a loud bang on the door, I have refused to open up till I heard Andrew calling my name. I opened the door and rushed to his arms. "Becca! What happened". " he's here". "Who? He asked to pat and saying comforting words to me still I can't stop shaking. " here! he leads me to the couch. 

"Tell me who was it". " Sam! I said, I have already told Andrew everything about Sam so now he was shocked as I am.  "how is it possible," he asked   "I don't know, how was it possible" I shivered he drew me to his arm "Did he say anything to you". " I didn't give him a chance to" I stood up to pace around the room "maybe he came to apologize". Andrew shrugged " I don't need his apology! I yelled "I don't know how he found me but I'll never allow him close to me or my child, he's a monster, someone that has ruined my life, someone that has made me think of killing myself, I will never forgive me"

Andrew spends the rest of the evening with me, chatting with Sunny and entertaining me with their discussion but I couldn't bring myself to concentrate on what they were saying. "I'll go and prepare something" I stood to leave them both. "How about we join you in the kitchen" he smiled up at me before looking at Sunny.

 "You don't have to do that" does he think I'll hurt myself or... "Mummy let us help you" Sunny clasps her hand together and Andrew joins too I couldn't help but laugh now seeing Andrew plead along with my daughter. "Okay but you all should be careful not to ruin anything". " yes Mummy! they both chorus, I glare at Andrew "seriously". I made some pasta and have Andrew and Sunny paster me about the name of the ingredients and when each it will be added. Their company made me forget about the encounter with Sam.

The next day, Emily drop by with a box full of chocolate " Aunt! Sunny called "can you let mum marry you"  "huh! Why? Don't you want to marry me again  " of course, I do just that uncle Andrew wants to marry me, I don't want to do"  "Is that so? Emily pout " But can I marry both of you" Emily shook her head "you have to choose one of us, think about it baby" she kissed her.

"Sunny you can take some chocolate up to your room" she jumped happily before leaving us both "What's the problem Becca! You don't look so good". I move to stand by the window, it was just difficult talking about the person I hate and despise so much " Becca! Emily called again and move to stand beside me "He's here" I sigh "who?  "Sam was here yesterday". " it can't be possible but why" she almost yelled in anger "Becca! What did he want," she asked? "I don't know Emily, I was shocked as you are, how does he know where I was living".  She sighs"

 he's going to come back again I'm sure about that"  "I know" I reply tapping my foot off the polished floor  "I wouldn't let him come closer to me or Becca! Emily pulled me in for a hug. " Emily! I called "But the main time can I ask you for a favor". " what? anything for you" she smiled "doesn't let anyone else know about this" she nodded without asking for my reasons.

"So tell me about Andrew" she winked at me changing the topic, of course, that's Emily for you. I glared at her funnily and went to pour us both drinks. "Come on! Do you like him". " yeah I do" I answer sipping my drink and offering her a glass. 

"I don't mean as friends, I mean like, like him". " yeah I like him" I almost burst out in laughter but I decided to play dumb "oh! Becca! The scorn " I mean do you love him" even though I know that's what she meant all along but I was struck with the question "no! I answered " Becca! don't be so cold, you guys have known each other for six years and you still don't love him" she looked at me in awe. 

"I don't believe you". " yeah I know that but that doesn't mean that I have to love him" "you know, you should move on with your life". " That's what am doing Emily, am moving on! don't you see it"  "no! I don't what I see is a woman who allows her past to affect her decision, what I see is a woman who can't move on because of her past, what I see is you hiding in your shell because of Sam!, not all men are like him. Andrew is a very nice person, I wonder why you haven't seen it". "I have that's why I choose him as my friend"  "just friend?  " seriously! friends? you're so unpredictable" she laughs before sipping up her drink "Have you ever ask him if he thinks of you as just a friend the way you do"

I stood on the balcony looking up at the clear sky, this was where I found my peace. Just looking at the sky, calm my stormy range, was Emily right? Was I still being affected by what Sam did to me? I didn't feel that way, I just want to give myself a break and raise my child, I didn't want anyone to interfere.

 I want to train her the way I want and cherish her so much even without a father, I was trying my best to act a role of both father and a mother to her. 

I have known Andrew for a long but I have just seen him as a friend who I can rely on, I haven't thought of living or building a home with him to me he's just a close friend but what about Andrew? Does he also take me as a friend or more?

I have dreaded any encounter with men just to avoid any situation like this, was this still being affected with the last just as Emily had said?