Mom hugging me was what I needed at the moment. She is always right in time,a mother that knows the heart of her child. Mom has always tried to play tough around me,I never understood why.
She is one tough woman I know,there came a time when I was growing up that I always think she is the worst mother anyone could have but that impression I have her did not stop me from loving her. Maybe it's the way she is.
I smiled at the feeling of being close to her,it's has always been mom and I. Even when she was at her worst.
"Mom thank you"
I said and pulled away from her,she wiped my tears and sat me down on the kitchen stool.
"What's happened darling?"
She asked.
"Mom it's Chris,I miss him and I am not feeling at ease here. I feels something is going to happen to him or more like is already in danger."
I said trying to understand what I was feeling at the moment.
"Chris is a man who understands the implication of going to South,I bet he is alright. You just miss him that's all. Don't get yourself worked up, alright my dear".
Mom said with a tone of assurance. What she said is true but not entirely, Chris know what's up with going to South but he being okay at the moment is what I can not guarantee you. I feel something is wrong with him. I pray it should just be only a feeling.
"Alright Mom,let me believe he is fine".
I said and smiled,
"I see you all giggles,what's up?"
I asked her.
"Nothing dear. I just realized that what happened was no one's fault and best compensation was having you. You are more than ten daughters put together. Being mad will be like I regret having you"
She said and I grinned wider. I am glad she saw it this way,I was even angry at myself and it's dawn on me,it was because I felt mom regretted having me that's why I was angry.
"Thanks Mom for having so much faith in me,I am honoured. I never get to tell you this so I have to say it now. You are the best mom in the whole wide world and I love you with all my heart."
I said and she smiled
"Awnnnn! And I am so luck to have you, thanks baby. You are one in a million, I am sorry your growing up was not what you pictured but it was for the best."
I smiled at my mom,I understand why she did what she did and no matter how much I try to get angry at her , I can't stay angry at her. My love for her surpasses all her shortcomings.
"It's okay Mom,I understand right from time so you don't have to worry."
She heaved a sigh,it was like a burden was lifted up her shoulders. I never realized that it's bothered her all this while. She sniffed the air and asked,
"I smell something in the air,what are you making?"
"Rice and Sauce, Mom,well let's say only rice because I have sauce already"
I responded.
"My favorite,thanks darling"
She said and blow a kiss to me, typical of mom. She knows how it works on me each time she does that and I believe that's her strategy of walking her way into my heart,what she does not know is that she has always been in my heart.
"Okay, let me leave you to finish up,I will be with Tiana"
She said and left the kitchen. Mom can never be replaced,that I know for sure. No matter how things goes or how things has gone in the past between us,She will always be the most important woman in my life.
I check the rice and it was due to be washed,I washed it and put it back on the burner for the final stage but not without adding salt to it,I love the taste of salt in my white rice same with Nora,there is no way she will prepare white rice or spagh without adding salt to it.