Chapter 201 Life Is Not Fair

  Nora's point of view....

.....Beverly

  It's Thursday morning and I am lying lazily on the bed with no hope of getting up,I don't even know how to start the day.

    Having returned from South yesterday with Sharon after paying Gina a visit,I had stayed indoor for the rest of the day. Sharon has persuaded me to follow him to go see her family and I had declined,I had told her the time was not Right. I was awfully looking and I would not want anyone to think something is wrong with me so I will go see her when I feel the time is right. For now let me try and get a smiling face because I don't have one at the moment.

     The fact that Gina is with a child is hard to believe,no don't get me wrong but I feel overwhelmed,she is my daughter and I feel like I am going to have a god granddaughter,is there any word like that but I don't care,it's just what I am feeling at the moment. I was more than happy, happier than the one who has begot the child

     Chris knowing about Sharon was another shock entirely, I was not expecting him to be aware but then nothing escapes Chris. The question should be how did he know know or is there something I am not aware off? And to say I did not understand Gina's anger,I will be a bloody liar. Chris ought have told her and it would have save of alot of stress but anyways,it's all good. I hope they iron out their differences.

     I sighed and turned on the bed. My phone was lying carelessly by the side. I picked it up and the time says 7:30,I sighed once more and drop the phone.

     I just shut myself out from the world,I don't know what is going on anymore. I have not visited any of my social media accounts and I don't even surf news again.

    I know I am way bigger than all of these but I don't know how to start coming out of my shell,each time I tried to see reasons to smile, life laughs at me and tell me that my shell is who I am and no matter how hard I tried to deny the fact that I am mateless, loneliness hits me up in another dimension.

    The facts remind that if you don't know how to go about life,life will keep riding you.

   I could smile fully in the day but at night,I get full dose of sadness and that had made me to prefer being in sorrow than having a moment of happiness then next minute,I am wallowing in deep sorrow,it does not make sense at all.

    I hope Nature comes to my rescue soon or I would be forced to transformed,I don't care about what Mom,Kurin and Karin said.

    I ran my fingers on my face and realized that I have been crying unknowingly with my pillow soaked with my tears,it was running freely like a running table with no handler.

     Life is indeed not fair,why would I be treated this way?.For more than twice I had found my self drowning in my sea of tears with no hope of when the sea will dry.

     I saw my phone blinking and I realized that it was ringing,I wipe my tears away and sniffed back the ones threatening to come out. I check my phone and it was Gina's Mom.

    "Hi Mom"

I said when her voice came through. 

   "Hi dear,are you okay?"

She asked with a worried tune

"I am Mom,don't mind me I caught cold"

I said trying to convince her that I am okay,she is too sensitive like Gina. I am not surprised she thought I am not okay.

   "Alright if you say so,I was thinking if you will have dinner with Xylie and I"

    I was not expecting her to call and invite me over for dinner. She has always been a lovely soul and there is no doubt that she will treat anyone like she treats Gina. I am honored.

     "Thanks Mom,I would love to"

I said and she sighed,I bet she thought I was going to reject the offer.

    "Then see you in the evening,stay good and don't worry everything will be fine"

    For her to say what she said,she did not buy my lies of catching cold.

     "Alright Mom, see you soon then,my regards to Xylie"

    I said and the phone went dead. I hope everything will be fine like everyone keeps saying. I sighed and relaxed back on the bed. I am in no mood to do anything today. Maybe later in the day,I will take a walk but for this morning,I am staying in bed. 

     I have got a lot of works to do at the office and I don't know when I will get them done.