Love Does not Have Time

     I walked into the kitchen with my mind so far away. My mind has been messed up and it would be bad if it will continue like this for the rest of the day.

   I quickly made the coffee for her the way she requested and took it to her room. After I was done delivering the coffee and returned, I got the vacuum and started cleaning the whole house excluding Susan and Zain's room and Owen's room. 

   While I was cleaning, I tried to ease my mind off the tension it was feeling.

  Before 8 am, I was done and made breakfast for myself. I made scrambled eggs and bacon, applied jam on my bread and got a glass of milk and walked back into my room.

  My coming out will be when Susan needs me to do anything for her again.

   My phone was ringing when I got in and it was mom.

  I quickly dropped my tray of breakfast and picked the call.

  "Hello mummy, beautiful morning to you"

I greeted her cheerfully.

  "Morning darling. I can sense the happiness in your voice. Do you want to tell me something?"

   I chuckled.

   "Mummy don't be silly. Do something need to happen before I can be happy?. I am glad to hear your voice. I really missed you, the first time in 3 years I woke up and I didn't see you. It just mean that a day will come when you won't have to be there when I wake up and I can't even bear the thought of it"

   I started off with a happy tune and ended with a sad tune. She sighed in the background.

  "Whether you like it or not I won't be here for you forever and again when you get married, you don't expect me to go with you to your new home?"

   She asked.

    "I know that mom but the better part of me is not ready for that change. Change is the only thing constant and at some point in our lives, it will happen." I said and paused then continue after some time " I just pray that I would be ready to embrace it when it comes"

   "My darling, you are so smart and I know that you can handle anything that comes your way." She said and I smiled at myself. I can't trade mom for anything in the world. She remains the best thing in my life right now, I can't say for the future but for now, she is number one.

   "How is Susan?" 

She asked a moment later. "Mummy she is fine, I saw her for a few minutes ago." I responded to her.

   "Okay my darling, momma is just checking up on you, have a blessed day. I might call in the afternoon to check up on you" She paused, " Be good and stay away from trouble"

  She said and ended the call.

  I dropped the phone and on second thought, I should not have dropped it because a call came in the moment I dropped the phone. 

   I stared at the screen, I felt reluctant to pick it. Tasha was calling.  

   If I ignore this call, she is going to feel bad and that is the last thing on my mind now.

I picked it at last and could feel the tension in her voice.

  "Hey baby girl. Morning to you" she greeted me cheerfully.

  "Morning best friend" I responded and asked her "hope you slept well?

  "Of Course I did, with the thought of you in my mind" 

   Hearing her, my heart twitched and I felt like puking.

   "Tasha slow down, are you not being speedy?"

She chuckled, " No, I am not. Just expressing how I feel even when I know you will never reciprocate." She stated.

   I was glad she knew I was not going to love her in the way she wanted.

   "Anything for the girls" I asked, although I knew what I was going to get.

  "A lot of love, my dear. Only that you would not allow me to show you a world of bliss" 

  At some point, I had to check my phone screen to see if I was actually talking to Tasha. I was beginning to doubt my sanity.

   "Tasha, I really need to go now. I will call you when I am done. Kisses 😘"

   I dismissed her. Her words were beginning to irritate my ears and I did not know how long I was going to listen to her talk nonsense.

   I dropped the phone but those who had me in their mind this morning were not done reaching out to me.

      Lucas did not call, he sent a text. I opened the message folder and I saw a long text message.

   "A very wonderful morning to the one who kept my dream alive last night. I slept like a baby with the thought of you in my heart. I know this sounds crazy right, I just met you and I have started sending you a lot of crazy texts. But my dear, love doesn't have time, when you see the one you love you feel it deep down in your heart and you want to reach out to the other person no matter what. 

   I don't know if this feels right but I think I want to spend time with you if you don't mind. I could have called you but I am shy. This might sound ridiculous but it is the truth. So if you feel you can spend time with me, please send a reply to me"

   After reading the text, I found myself laughing. Did he say he is shy, like for real?.

   I typed in a quick reply to him, appreciating his kind gesture and wishing him a blessed morning then told him that I would love to spend time with him and I will convey the time I will be free to him later. I can't say for now the time I will be free until I am sure of how Susan day is going to go.

    When I was done, I dropped the phone for good.

   It was time for breakfast.