A Step At Time

 Jenny's point of view…

   When I saw Celine's call, I was relieved. It means she is safe and sound with my kids. I had to pretend as if nothing was wrong because she is this sensitive person that smells your trouble from far away.

   I was sitting inside the car, parked at a spot for over fifteen minutes now with no destination in mind. I knew I was going to go home but was I ready to explain to mom that I had kids? How I was able to hide the pregnancy from her. She will be mad, so mad that it will take grace for her to understand that I did what I did because I wasn't ready to face her.

  "I am glad you are but we need to talk"

   That statement alone was ready to give me a heart attack. Though this is not the first time she had mentioned "we need to talk"that kind of thing. It's like her every other day phrase but today, regarding what I had gone through in the past few hours I wasn't sure if they are okay. I panicked. 

  I was worried and expecting her to talk but she was taking time which was not helping matters at all.

   I heard her sighing after a while"I think it's time you tell everyone the truth, Mitchell and Michael deserve to know who their father is"

   My racing heart had to calm down after hearing the topic of the discussion. It's not a new thing.

   I closed my eyes and smiled sadly. 

"If only I can at this point, I will do so"

I mumbled looking at my sweating palms.

  "What's the matter, Jenny? You are not saying anything?"

   "I don't think there is something to say. We have talked about this several times and I told you that the time is not right yet. I understand that they are burden to you but not to worry, they won't be anymore"

I said trying to hide the hurt in my voice.

  "What do you mean, Jennifer Thompson? Are you not being selfish enough to deprive your kids of their father? I understand that Zain hurt you and your keeping them away from him is your way of getting back at him but my dear, you have to rethink. Take these kids to their father and have peace. I am saying this because I wouldn't be a party to this anymore."

   She was almost shouting. I don't blame her. It just has to be her and Tasha all along. I know she loves me and she wants me to do the right thing but she wouldn't understand that I am under pressure and there is a possibility that Mitchell and Michael will never get to have Zain as their father. It's not easy for me and she would not understand so I won't bother explaining.

  "I will think about it"

I muttered tiredly and I could picture her nodding her head.

  "Alright, we are fine. They just miss you and I will appreciate it if you give us a video call."

I smiled," there won't be any need for that. I am coming home and I am taking them to Mom. I am ready to tell mom the truth but not Zain yet"

   "That's a wise thing to do. A step at a time and we will get there. Don't ever forget that I love you and I will support you in anyway I can"

She said softly and I nodded"I will try to remember that always "

I felt a tear roll down my cheek and I couldn't help but smile."Take care of yourself, miss Celine"

"I will"

She ended the conversation and I put the phone down then sighed.

  My phone buzzed again and realized that another call was coming in. I stared at the screen, biting my lips. I had no intention of picking the call but it persisted and I had to pick it. Lucas is one strong headed man I know.

  "If you have not picked up, I would have sworn that something is wrong with you. I am glad that I can get to you right now"

Lucas's voice sounded at the other side. I chuckled,"Don't worry, Lucas. Nothing is wrong with me."

"Are you sure about that, Jen? Do you ever believe that you're not fine?" He asked, sounding disappointed. I had to think if he actually wanted to hear that I am not fine. He is funny.