Now Or Never

Jenny's point of view…..

We continue to eat in silence. I felt so terrible that the day would have to begin like this. What a bad day for all of us.

I better get on with my breakfast so that I can give them the bad news, more like good news. It depends on the perspective they would be seeing it from.

 From time to time, I will look at them.

"Oh heaven, give me the strength to tell them this"

I prayed in my heart as I continued to eat.

  Few minutes later, we were all done. We finished almost immediately. It looked like it was planned.

"Thank you mummy"

Both chorused at the same time and stood up. Both started leaving the dining room.

  "Mitchell!! Michael!!"

I called out to them and they stopped in their tracks but did not turn to look at me.

"Can we talk?"

I asked politely and silence met my question. I was afraid that I would get a no from them and when it seemed they would not answer, Mitchell shrugged her shoulders,"Yes, mummy."

I took a deep breath and tried smiling.

"Alright, if you both don't mind, meet me in the study"

They nodded and left.

Miss Setory appeared immediately.

"Twins are so beautiful to have but their troubles are out of this world"

She stated, smiling. She was right. Twins are blessings yet I have had more headaches than blessings but I am not complaining. The worst they can do to you is ganging up against you.

"I agree with you totally"

I stood up and started leaving but stopped,"by the way, breakfast was delicious. Thank you"

She nodded in response.

  I turned and continued walking then stopped. I remembered something. 

"Setory, make lunch for four. We will be having a guest later today"

I ordered and she bowed,"I will do that. What should I prepare"

"Make pasta and grilled cheese"

  I stated and left finally with my heart throbbing inside me loudly. What I am about to do will change the cause of things around here. Today, my kids would hate me. I might even lose them, you know why, they might go to meet their father in Reben Castle and I would be stuck with Harrison because  it is a fate I chose.

  With a heavy heart, I approached the study. Each second looks like eternity, I was walking steadily but it felt like I was staggering. My eyes stung and hot liquids dropped on my cheeks, my tears. I am even crying before the whole drama. 

  I finally made it to the Study. Lifting my hand to grab the door handle, I saw my hand shaking. No matter how hard I tried for it to stop, it would not. I almost had a panic attack.

"Calm down, Jennifer. Took a deep breath. You can do this"

My mind was saying. I did like I was instructed and after calming down, I opened the door and walked in. 

Closing the door, Mitchell and Michael turned on their seats to face me.

  "Anything we have to discuss in this study is so serious. I wondered what it could be this time around"

Mitchell said.

Michael glance at me,"we will have to hear that from mummy"

I took my own seat.This is it, now or never.

"I am getting married"

I blinked at myself. It was not what I wanted to say. The shock on their faces was something I could not have imagined.

"Wait! What!!"

Both screamed at the same time.

"Mom, how come. When did you have a boyfriend to talk more about getting married?"

Mitchell asked with furrowed brows.

 She was still shocked.

   A part of me told me that telling them this, is wrong and that this is an unwise decision, however, a bigger part of me told me that they must know. This has to be the first step. I must fix their lives.

"You remember that friend of mine that dropped by yesterday?"

I asked and looked at each of them in turn. They nodded with confusion written all over their expressions.

"Well..."

I hesitated for a few moments.

"He is the one I am getting married to"

"Are you kidding, mom?!"

Michael asked and sat down. He did not even realize he stood up before.

Mitchell's mouth opened, she looked at me in disbelief.

"This is unbelievable"

She clapped her hands and looked back at me. She started laughing to my surprise.