265: I Can't Sleep Alone.

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            Waiting for the rain to stop so that I can go.

That's what I was doing. I looked at my phone and it was nine. I didn't know for how long I was going to wait till it stops but that was my aim. I decided to sit on the sofa waiting for it. Davids was not done from Nimo's room. I guess they have a lot to talk about. I don't even know what they are talking about. I don't have to worry when Davids is with her. I know she is in good hands. 

I picked up a call from Brian. He wanted to know if I was at Davids and doing okay.

Yeah, I am trying to see if it's going to lessen so that I can come home. Where are you at?

"Just for home with mum Vicky. You know you can sleep over at Davids then we will bring you some clothes to change tomorrow. You have nothing to fear."

I listened to his words. I was not sure if this was the correct thing to do. Sit here with Davids and sleep with her in the same bed because the extra room is not clean. 

That's like the worst idea Briana, can you at least give me another option that doesn't involve two bodies in the same bed?

Brian laughed over the phone and cleared his voice. 

"What about your sleep on the cold floor. I bet Davids will allow that, given that you guys are like water and oil. So you chose, the bed or the cold floor."

You've forgotten she has a comfortable sofa and the floor is also okay because she has some good carpet that is fluffy and nice to sleep in. 

"Why do I feel like you have already done a lot there to know everything.  Have you gone to  her room also?"

Sweetheart, you forgot she is dating someone and her bed is off bounds, but Nimo tells me she sometimes sleeps there when they have lengthy conversations and she is tired to go to her room.

"What do they talk about. I bet she told Davids about you. So she knows everything that you are trying to hide you know. "

      Fuck, I hadn't thought about that, do you think? 

"I don't appreciate the cursing in my house, we have small kids around the place. So better watch your mouth."

Davids's voice startled me out of my wit. I thought she was still talking with Nimo. For how long has she been standing here?

"Ever since you received that call, and whatever we are talking with Nimo has told me nothing about you. Just her life and how school is, satisfied?"

I could only nod to her words. She is so intimidating. Why wouldn't I curse, the kids are already asleep. There is no harm in that. I ended the call with Brian and adjusted myself on the sofa. Time was flying and she was still standing in front of me. Isn't she going to tell me to take the bird like a gentle lady?

She walked and left me all alone in the room. I guess I will take the sofa the way Brian said, only he didn't suggest the sofa but the floor. 

"Come, you will sleep in my bed, I will take the couch for today."

She was back again. Why is she acting all creepy? She was supposed to announce her presence once she walks in. This is making me feel scared. 

I looked at her body and the couch, definitely she is not going to sleep on the couch, her huge body is not going to fit in. 

I stood up and took her offer, she knows very well what she wants and I am not going to say otherwise about it. 

She led me to the washroom and showed me the shower place, I had to take a shower. I am a lady and I don't want to look dirty in front of her though I was already tired. 

Coming from the shower, she had let her locks all down and all the rings in her fingers were all placed neatly on top of the dressing table. Her shirt was off and she was only walking in a sports bra though she didn't need one. She doesn't have big boobs, she is just moderate and I love it. I walked in her removing her pants and she was only remaining in her boxers. White as usually. Though they didn't match the black sports bra that she had on. 

"You are done checking me out, maybe I can now use the bathroom you know."

I didn't know what to say or do. I only had a towel on my body and one on my head. She handed me a blow drier and walked into the bathroom.  Maybe I should just look into her closet for a t-shirt instead of standing in the middle of this big bedroom.  There were all types of T-shirts. I preferred the white one. I wanted to be comfortable in bed and avoid being so tightened by my top and trousers. 

Done with my dressing, I decided to step into her bed. It was huge, though I thought the largest bed they make is a six by six bed. When did they start making this huge one? It was slightly raised and comfortable. The mattress made you bounce up and down, I guess it's spring

I was not sleeping, this room is too big for me to sleep alone. All the spaces around me will make me feel like I am seeing ghosts walking all over me.  I decided to wait and see if Davids will be willing to join me. 

She took a long in the bathroom, I don't know what she is doing, maybe she is doing it, you know, with her hands, come on. Why would she take that long? 

Jeez, thinking of that was making me wet and I wanted her hands in between my legs. This is what I wanted but too bad I won't get any of it. 

When she was out, she avoided my eyes and went to her dressing mirror. 

I hope it's okay that I took your t-shirt, I didn't want to sleep in my tight clothes they are my comfy.

She didn't say anything but went ahead to apply lotion on her body as if she didn't heat what I was talking about. Done with it, she turned around and said it's okay and picked some sheets from the closet and walked towards the exit. 

No, this is not happening, I can't sleep here all alone.  I need to ask her to sleep with me or I am going to scream at night. 

Uh, Davids, can you please sleep with me tonight? I am not used to sleeping alone. 

She quickly turned around and looked at me. I could see furrows on her forehead. Did I say something bad?

"Oh, so you have men spreading themselves in your bed every day you are sleeping?"

What? I didn't mean that, I just can't sleep alone? Even Clara knows that. Ever since I gave birth to Zeke and Noelle I can't sleep alone. It's either, Clara or I sleep with the babies. 

I could see her relaxed when I said that. Why would she say that I had men spread themselves on my bed? Though even when I am sleeping with someone, I will still have those nightmares and they scare me a lot. I don't know what I am going to do to make them stop?

"Give me a reason why you can't sleep alone? Who sleeps with you in my mother's house?"

Brian or Mum Vicky. She makes sure I am comfortable. It's not like I don't want to sleep alone. I feel embarrassed to ask someone to sleep with me too. I am a big person right now, and being cuddled while sleeping is not something I enjoy. I have to accept it because I feel safe at that time.

She sighed and placed the sheets she was holding on the dressing table. At least she reconsidered everything and going to spend a night here. I was almost thinking that she will leave me here.  Scooching over so that she can sleep in, she went to the washroom and the closet then stood in the room looking at me. 

"There is nothing that is going to scare you. Just clear your mind and sleep."

She picked up her sheets and walked out of the house not after picking up those sheets she had left on the dresser and headed out. 

I know this is going to end up well. It's either I will scream and jump out of the bed or I will break my leg trying to escape a nightmare that's not real. 

Maybe I should call Brian and ask him to speak to Davids. Though that should not be the reason. Maybe I should try and sleep alone in this room instead of just letting everyone look after me as if I were some young kid. 

I saw the light in the living room go off and I was left on my own, please nightmare, can you not embarrass me today?