322: Come Here.

I was woken up by the beeping of the monitor, I heard voices around and I knew that I was in the same place I was yesterday. I wanted to light my head but I couldn't, I looked around. Davids' hand was on me, she was holding me when I was sleeping even though she was sick. Even though she was having tubes on her body. I gently removed her hands and looked at him. She was still sleeping. Should I call it sleeping given that yesterday she was in the same position and didn't speak to me? Maybe I should calm down and give her time, she will come around and we will be okay.

Looking around, I saw the doctor holding a card and I asked him how she was doing. 

"She is better than yesterday, we hope she wakes up today, and that's anytime."

I looked at him and nodded, hoping that anytime is now or some hours after this. I placed a blanket over her body and left her to sleep. She was resting now, my head was on her thighs and my eyes looking at her. I didn't t know if she is going to wake up right now or in the afternoon but I hope she woke up better. 

Brian walked in with coffee in his hands. I sighed and he handed me the coffee

"How are you doing baby?"

I couldn't help but shed tears listening to him asking me how I was doing. He is here and that is all I need. 

I am better, I am trying to be better. Davids on the other side can wake up any moment now. I hope she wakes up and looks at me. I know she is hurt but, Brian, you gotta understand me, I want her up and sound. I want to hear her say everything to me. I want her to laugh with me even for a second, to pinch me or even play with my cheeks, Is that too much to ask?

Brian held me tightly while hugging me. Maybe I was asking too much of Davids. Maybe I was not giving her a chance to say something to me. She needed to wake up and look at me. She needed to look at me and tell me to go away. She can't. She is in there trying to hide away from me.

"Give her time baby, be patient she is going to come around and you two are going to speak. Maybe you can take your coffee and we wait and see what will happen next."

I nodded and sipped the coffee that he brought me. It was sweet more like tea than coffee. I loved it though I didn't enjoy it the way I normally enjoy my cup of coffee when Davids is around. She sometimes sip on one end while I sipped on the other end.

Brian suggested I take shower in the bathroom near. I quickly took a hasty shower not the normal one that I take while knowing that someone is waiting to breathe in my scent from this other side of the world. Right now I am just taking it because I need to be clean and around Davids who was asleep and wouldn't even smell me. 

"Ate you sure you've showered, baby? You have taken only thirty seconds and you are out?"

I am frustrated Brian, who is there to be showered for? What? She is not going to smell me and tell me that I smell nice, she is not here to lift my armpits and mad sniff them before throwing me back into the shower and pouring a whole bottle of body wash into my arm and scrubbing it. She is not here to wash my feet and hold them in her hands. I want her to do that to me but she cants because she is in there somewhere and she is not waking up.

Brian was hugging me, I need to have a grip on myself, or else I am going to lose it. I am going to lose myself on this. I can't go home, I can't calm the kids because they will ask if their father can speak. I held myself and looked at Davids. 

               "Is she crying?"

Brian and I looked at her eyes and we saw tears flowing down her cheeks. 

"She is listening to what you say, maybe she is also frustrated that she can't come out of that and hold you, she can't tell you that you are still dirty and need a proper shower. Give her time, everything is going to be okay.

I nodded with Brian and sat down next to Davids holding her hands. This was what I was doing here yesterday. Held it steadily while trying to get her attention she gave me my squeezing my hands. She did it again but she can't open her eyes.

I sat there watching her smile sometimes after I said something funny and cry when I say something sad.

The doctor came to check on her and said we should be patient with her. She might take a little longer. I am tired of waiting a little longer. I am tempted to force her to wake up. 

I watched as people have to say hello and leave me with her. Right now, I am with Clara. She jas explained that the children are fine and nothing is wrong with them. Damien is also in the room trying to look at Davids. They haven't posted anything about her on the media, but I am grateful. I know they will, once they see her awake. That is what friends do for each other, they hold them when they're down.

"Daniella, you need to eat already, stop crying all the time, she can hear you hear you cry here all day. Just put something in your mouth. You don't want her waking up to see her fiancee looking like sticks and bones now, don't you?"

I laughed at his statement, I started picking some meat from the meal they had brought with them. We shared the meal and sat there silently watching as Davids chest was heaving up and down. 

"She is very calm you know, she is just something else apart from the Davis you know. She loves you and she always loves you. Even when she was mad, she still spoke about you and said she was so afraid that, she is messing things up with you. She couldn't face you. She was angry and maybe she regrets what she did. Tell me again how she is the after of the children."

Clara pushed him away and focused on me. 

"Baby, stop it, it is just the same way you placed Amelia inside of me. The only difference, she didn't do it, she went through artificial insemination."

Clara was just making it worse, she could have just let Damien sort out the issue. They always know when to keep my spirit up every time I am down.

          "Despite all that, I am happy she is the father."

I asked them about their daughter and they said she was fine and was with Nimo and the other siblings. I got a video call, it was from Mum Vicky's phone. 

          "Hello mum"

Nimo was the one calling with Amelia in her crib playing and jumping all over her. She was happy but at the same time, she was cheeky. She tried to hide under that baby while calling me. Behind her, I could hear Mum Vicky asking if anyone has seen her phone, and Zeke and Rose were busy saying, no.

Nimo, return that phone to your grandma, it's hers what are you doing with it?

She pouted while looking at me. I wonder what she was up to this time.

"I wanted to ask how daddy is doing,  please tell her I miss her and I want to see her. Is she okay? Everyone wants to see her, even Zeke and Rose. Can you please put her through?"

I held my head and knew this was going to be hard for them. I can't show them the face of Davids, that was too bad and they can't see her like that. 

                     I am sorry baby but you can.....

                    "Bring it, I will say hi to them."

I heard the faint voice of Davids from the other end and rushed to her side. She was awake and her voice was sore. I put her on the phone and she called her brothers.

"Dad, how are you doing? Were you sleeping? Sorry, we've woken you up, how are you doing?"

There were a hundred questions from Nimo while his brothers looked on the phone with Amelia also keen on what was being said.

"I am fine baby, how as you doing, all of you, is everything okay?"

Nimo started shedding tears, and so were her brothers. A cry for nothing.

"No, we want to come over and see you but everyone says we can't come, please tell grandma that she should bring us."

David's nodded for them, she was still high on medication but I was happy that she could speak to them. She promised to speak to her mother and allow them to come over.

"You guys are terrible, how can you ask her how I gave her the babies?"

"Dude, you were listening all along? I thought you were not, my bad."

"No, my name baby was forcing me to come back to her. Come here, I want to smell if you had good shower first before I say anything"

She stretched out her hand and I couldn't hold my tetearsack. She placed a kiss on my lips.

"I am here baby, I love you, okay?"