CHAPTER 115: AM l UGLY?.

Although she was acting all strong and courageous outside, she was so week and fragile inside. After slamming the door in Paul's face she sat down and leaned on the door. She could feel the way Paul was pushing her bedroom door.

She wailed and sobbed as to why that was happening to her. 'Am l really doing the right thing mother, father, please show me a sign it hard for me to decide, what will l tell my child about his/her father she thought'

She opened the door so that she can hear what he had to say but unfortunately for her, Paul has already left. She didn't want to appear desparet by following him outside so she closed the door and lied to bed.

Paul descend the stairs with a heavy heart, he failed to convice her, he failed to seek for forgiveness. How will his mother react when he learned what had happened.

He looked at the teddy bear, flowers and chocolate that he had bought them for her still lying on the table. Then walked outside the house without taking them along.

Paul wiped his tears as he walked towards the car. He looked inside the car but Mike was no where to be seen. He took his cell phone and dialed his number.

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After coming from the ochard, Milka washed some mangoes for mike as requested. He already had a pocket knives with him so he started slicing them.

"Sir Mike, what really happened between Ma'am Ivana and Sir Paul. Ma'am Ivana was so angry when she saw him" Milka couldn't help but ask. He have been wanting to ask him that question but she didn't find the perfect moment to do so. Now that time was not on their side, she decided to ask.

"I really don't know Milka ...okay stop calling me sir then l will tell you"

"Stop joking around Mike"

"Okay, l really don't know but Paul cheated on her, but l don't know with which woman"

Milka was surprised as she covered her mouth with her hand. "You mean Sir Paul...

Mike's phone rang making her stop talking. He pulled out his phone from the pocket. "Talking of the devil" he said as he showed the screen to Milka. Paul was the one calling.

"Where are you you mehn" his voice come through the phone it was so timid.

"I am at the back of the house enjoying some juice mangoes, should l bring you some"

"Come on mehn we need to leave" 

"Okay on my way there just two seconds." He said while picking two mangoes in the buscket. He washed his hands at the tap the left hurriedly after saying, "Thank you so much for these juicy fruits, take care"

'He seems to be a nice man but hmph, if Paul can cheat, then marriage needs preparation' she thought. She picked up the bucket with mangoes and left for the house.

She went through the back door, she placed the bucket of mangoes on the kitchen table and left for the sitting room. Ivana was not there, she walked outside only to see Paul and Mike leaving in the car.

She went and closed the gate then returned to the house. "Ivana are you there?"she called while climbing the stairs.

She knocked on Ivana's bedroom door  and waited for a moment before pushing it open. Ivana was lying in her bed crying she walked towards her and pulled her into a hug and said "stop crying doll, l am here for you it will be okay"

"Milka tell me, am l not beautiful enough for him to cheat on me with another woman. Tell me Mish, am l that ugly?" She sobbed on Milka's shoulders.

"Don't say like that he just doesn't know what he has lost, you are a what they refer to as beauty with brains. You can't compare yourself with us Ivana" she consoled her.

"Anyway the only person who could have answered me all this questions is my father. But unfortunately he is more, l wish l a had a mother who could have guided me in this thing called marriage."she said then pulled away from the hug.

Milka looked at her the smiled the way she is a strong woman. "Ivana l must applaud you for being a strong woman" 

"I think l got the strength from my mother, if l had time to see her or get to know her better l could have known. But l must say she was a strong woman, my dad was one hell of a sturbon husband"

Milka looked at her then remembered what Mike had asked her about Ivana's mother. So she decided to twist the question ask her. "Ivana...have ..have you ever seen your mother on the picture?" She trilled off.

"Unfortunately no, l used to ask for them from my father but used to ignore my question. I have searched for them.in the house but l have never found even one,l don't know maybe after the death of Mum my dad burned her photos to avoid thinking about her, l really don't know" she explained to her vividly.

"And Ivana if l may ask, you usual visits your father's grave, have you ever visited your mum's?"

After asking her that question Mish felt like Ivana will be annoyed with her and demand the reason behind those questions. So she bowed her head as she played with her figures, she was almost apologizing when Ivana answered her.

"Surprisingly l don't know where they hurried her, so l don't visit her grave. I don't know how that matter escaped my mind l could have asked dad about it. Wherever it won't help me even if l visit it" she answered her.

Milka looked at her resolute gaze, she felt bad for her just like herself she never got to see her mother or dad.

Ivana was spacing out as she appeared to be in complicated emotional struggle. Maybe thinking about what Milka has just asked. She didn't even realize when Milka excused herself so that she can blend fresh juice for her. Her favourite appetizer since the day they started to harvest their fruit from the orchard.