Chapter 148

        I sat back on the chair as I burst out in laughter. I am now a psychopath, the world has made me a psychopath, now I talk like a man drunk by the roadside, I can be killed in just a snap of the finger.

    I won't do that i won't do that at all i will find a way out, i cannot seduce a god to cast the spe;ll, instead i will force him to do so, i won't be at his mercy , i know his weakness now, and i will use it to my advantage.

    ‘’ well anyway we can be of help kindly tell jus’’ michael said , ii nodded immediately i need as much help i can get, even the dead and alive would be of help, i will prove to them that i wasn't chosen to bow to their feet, i would go back to the land of the living them cast the spell for kailani's body.

     Then we would be a step forward, ‘’ rethy, should we continue the story?, ;’’ a woman behind me said i was distracted from my thoughts, a new story won't but, i nodded then gave her permission to continue.

    I am a captain both in the land of the living and dead, I was overwhelmed by the sense of authority. I feel so proud of myself right now, but good things don't come easily, I suffered alot before coming here.

   The woman behind me came to the middle then started her story. I couldn't help listening to their adventure, so I took some notes. Now I see why people say live your life like every day is the last, she died unexpectedly.

   If I had died when I was thirteen I wouldn't have a story to tell because I spent all my life being so serious, when I would have rocked my tender age, but I am learning, when all this is over i would explore the world, irrespective of how old i would be, and i promise myself that.

     I listened to their stories till i started feeling that cold sensation, i guess it's time to go back, break time is over , ‘’ i promise to find more information’’ michael said, i nodded slightly, then everything went blank.

    I was hoping i would see athena and kailanis face any moment but i didn't, i saw myself lying on a soft and tender grass, in a familiar palace, it was the land of good revelation., ‘’welcome reth dear’’ haniel said i looked at him with a lot of emotions storming my eyes.

     , i know… i know.. ‘’ he said as he stretched his hand to lift me up, i took sadly, ‘’why?’’ i asked, ‘’ that's why you are here’’ he said then realization struck me this is called the revelation land because i autull see things that might happen or had happened here.

‘’ yes reth , you are right as always, you are here because of your questions’’ haniel said, i looked at him , i can never get tired of looking at this face he looks so unique, he looks like a human but not a human, i really don't know how to describe him

    ‘’ First, i know what you are currently going through back in the land of humans, i am sorry i can't help, your body is there and you are here, but you are losing more energy’’ haniel said how can i lose energy, when i am not awake, all i need is just a little bit of good news.

     I feel so depressed, ‘’ i am your guardian angel….’’ habniel said but i interrupted, this is too much i try doing something and they make it so impossible, they make my effort look weak, i just want to go back to the land of the dead, my curse is now a blessing.

   I felt so angry, how!!!I'm here to have peace and I can't get it. When I get back home I don't find peace, how can Haniel be my guardian angel, and yet he doesn't help,instead he stays here all day and all night.

     Doing nothing in particular, all he does is speak parables, he calls me in here just to give me more tasks that seem impossible, this is just insane. I don't want to wake up, I don't want to see his face ever again , I can't take this disappointment, I am really tired

     I let myself fall to the floor. I want to lose much more energy, I don't want to wake up again, even if I have to, I don't want to last longer, I want to go back to Jessica, they bring me much more joy. 

      I have given up so much along the way, and I have stood up on my feet several times but the frustration is real. In a short period I have heard more bad news than I can handle…

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     Why can't this be a dream, I want to wake up now, I promise to learn from my mistakes. Let me just wake up. Everyone tells me I am capable of stopping this war,but each time I stumble again an impenetrable rock.

      ".I can be of help to you '' Haniel said and I stopped in my tracks, how can he be off help? Why hasn't he been helping ever since?.

    What type of help is he talking about, will he help me take this curse away?A Lot of questions stormed my head, " hel and his associates cursed you, just to frustrate you, but there's a remedy.

    I might not be of help, like the supernatural human that has no been following you, but I promise you I will prove to you that I am what I say I am

   I was pissed, I just wanted to leave out anything she has to say that doesn't matter anymore, " I will give you the words now necessary to unlock Kailans body" haniel said.

     I glared at him, all I could feel was hate and anger, nothing more I just need a place  to rest, I ignored him then walked further, all I need now is to relieve myself from the stress 

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