Chapter 62

I actually became a little bit teary while writing javier and Bella's part.

Read it and tell me what you think.

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Javier swallowed hard as he gazed at his mother in front of him. He didn't know where to start. He sure had a lot of details to explain if she was even going to believe him. he wouldn't blame her though, it was kind of hard to believe the whole underground theory.

Felix was gone so he felt more comfortable and he could tell her anything he didn't wanted wholeheartedly

"Are you gonna say something or you are just going to sit there and not say anything. You told me over the phone that you would like to have a discussion with me but now you are silent" she asked.

 Truth be told, Javier didn't know how he was going to utter the words out of his mouth. Bella was heart broken when she heard it, Hattie was much worse, now he wondered how his mother would react. It was heart breaking, he knew, but the deed was already done and there was no going back. Mephistopheles was not that merciful to forfeit the deal. He always found joy in causing pain to other people. He is the devil after all.

" Life has always been unfair. I know" he began and Anne looked at him with a puzzled look on her face. "Sometimes it can get so tough, most times unbearable" he explained more

"Javier you are making less sense right now" she said and javier continued

"I am part of those unfortunate people that life has been so unbearable to" he said and Annie's eyes softened although she had no idea what he was talking about.

"what do you mean?" Anne asked 

"I don't know where to begin"

"Then start from somewhere. You are really making me worried, Javier with all your talks"

"I'm not what you think I am" Javier blurted out" 

"Can you explain more?. You are barely making any sense"

"Ok" he exhaled sharply. He was about to tell his mother top secret and he did not know how she would react to it. "When I was 9, I became a being called lashedta"

"What is a lashedta?" Anne asked with squinted eyes as a result of confusion and Javier understood her confusion

"Who is a lashedta" he corrected. " Lashedta are known as supernatural being and..." Javier was cut short

"You are saying that you are one of them?" Anne asked with a puzzled look on her face

"Yes" he said calmly. The look on her face could not be deciphered so javier wasn't sure what she was thinking. "When I was 9 I started noticing how strange I was becoming. I knew I was changing and I knew that it was happening in a negative way, but there was nothing I could do about it. It stopped for a while but then I started noticing it when I was 12 and by that time it was a lot more stronger. It wasn't normal and I knew it"

"And you kept it to your self?" 

"I was so scared,  I didn't know what to do at that time. I just kept it to my self" of course he could not tell his mother that he told Bella about it. If he told her that, then he would have to tell her the part where bella consoled him and with that, she might figure the whole thing out and the least he wanted to do was expose Bella. If he did, Mephistopheles might use the opportunity to punish Bella for letting her secret out. Mephistopheles was that cruel and he could do anything.

"Oh dear" Anne said. The look on her face held disbelief and worry. She looked at Javier for a while without being able to say anything. She didn't know what to say. She tried not to believe it, but she knew that Javier was not the type to joke around. If he said something, he really meant it.

She placed her hand on her forehead and bowed her head slightly as she exhaled deeply. She looked back up

"Why did you keep this away from me?" 

" I was too scared at that time and it was best not informing you because if I have done that, then it would have been a different story now" Javier said, judging from the fact that lashedta weren't allowed to tell their secret. Him telling Hattie about the underworld was part of the reason why his deal with mephistopheles got so bad

"What do you mean by that, you are not allowed to say a word about it?" Anne asked

"Something like that" 

"Is it like a secret society or something? "

"Yes but it's a secret society from hell" he said and he watched as her eyes widened in shock

"I belong to hell, mother . I am a demon"

"what?" She said and it was almost unbelievable. If he was just a supernatural being, she wouldn't have been that shocked, but the fact that she just found that her son that she had birthed was a demon made her shriek

"I know it's hard to believe, but it's the truth. I have been like this since birth, but it only started manifesting at age nine'

"Javier are you sure that's what you are or you just assumed. This is almost impossible and I know it"

"It might sound impossible but believe me when I say it's is true. I doubted it at first. I mean how could I be a demon, but the devil confirmed my doubt" Javier said and Anne stared at him with her face expressionless, but he knew that she had alot going on in her head

"You met with the devil?"

"Yes I did" Javier blurted out.

"Is there not like a way to reverse this whole thing"

"No there is not, its who I am. Its not something that one can easily change" Javier said and sighed. He didn't think he would be able to come up with a way  of telling her about the deal and there was a possibility that he wasn't going to let her know. It was just not so easy to keep on breaking everybody's heart. He didn't like watching people close to him cry.

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Her eyes were red and puffy as she stared at him. Bella was still in shock by the news and her only reflex was to cry. She just couldn't help it. She felt like her whole world was crumbling down at her feet. She thought she was tough, but this broke her.

Bella tried to open her lips to talk but her mouth was dried. Her voice came out like a whisper and it was barely heard. Her lips were chapped and her skin was very pale. She looked unhealthy

"Javier" she tried again and her voice was much clearer but it still had that rasp in it. "Could you pass me that glass" she said removing the duvet that was wrapped around her body. She had been like that all day, drinking her life out and sleeping on the couch with a thick duvet on

"No Bella, you are not drinking anymore. I am not gonna let you"

"Say hello to my new life now" Bella slurred with sleepy eyes. " The moment you are gone, I would be fully unleased" she erupted into a loud menacing laughter, clapping her hands too

"Bella stop this"

"You can't tell me what to do. You didn't ask for my opinion when you did what you did anyway"

"Bella drinking won't do anything" 

"It would, for me"

"So you are just gonna drown your face in alcohol all day?"

"Yes that's what I pretty much intend on doing, since my life would pretty much be a mess without you being here"

" I'm still here Bella"

"You would leave soon enough. It doesn't make any difference"

"Soon not now. Bella"

"Still the same thing"

"Can you just reason with me for a second"

"Talking to you will just make me feel worse. Why did you even come over in the first place. Did you come to check if I was wallowing in misery, well am not. As you can see, I'm doing just great"

"Bella stop. I came here so that we could talk"

" Talk about what?"

"Everything" javier said

"I don't want to talk to you. Javier" 

"Bella I understand how you are feeling but...."

"Don't you dare" bella glared at him and the emotions she was hurdling, began to flow out with reckless abandon. She stood up from where she was laying and walked over to Javier. "You can never know how am I feel. You will will never understand"

"Bella I wish I could change this"

"You would not have made such a deal. you didn't care about how I would feel. You just did what you thought was right. Did you care about my feelings then? Did you realize how heartbroken I would feel. You are my only brother for goodness sake. Who I am going to turn to if I ever go into big trouble. Who am I going to brag about. You made that deal and you didn't realize that your only sister might lose her mind?"

 She yelled in his face with tears in her eyes. " I hate you javier!" She yelled harder and proceeded in hitting his chest with her fist as hard as she could. "I hate you! " She kept on screaming and Javier managed to hold her. They both fell slowly to the floor with Bella sobbing hard

"You don't mean that Bella. You don't" he coed calmly, patting her slightly on her back. The scenerio made him remember what happened the day he had his first encounter with Mephistopheles. He was so scared and Bella coed him and patted him on his back, telling him not to worry about a thing. They made a promise to each other that night to always stay by each other, now he was breaking that promise. How he wished he could change it.

"Javier" bella muffled out softly

"Yes Bella" he called out to

"When are you coming back?"

"I am not coming back Bella" he said and his heart ripped into pieces as he uttered the word.

There was few minutes of silent, no one said a word. They just layed on the floor beside each other in deep silence

"Remember that time you almost pushed me off the roof. When we tried ballet dancing on the roof" Bella finally spoke after the long silence

Javier smiled slightly as the memories came flooding back and the look on Bella's face held a small smile too

"You knew nothing about ballet" Bella added

"I actually knew the basis more than you did back then" Javier stated

"I almost fell of the roof twice and you talk about skill" bella asked

"It was fun still" Javier said

"We both laughed out heart out, despite the fact that I could have died. We then layed down on the hard floor. This way. And we both stayed there until the stars came out"

"That is a day I can never forget"

"Do you also remember the day, we begged mum to let us bake"

"That was a disaster" javier said and a slight small laughter was heard

"You mistook salt for suga and mum made us eat the whole thing" Bella said with a smile on her face. "I was bent on killing you that day, for making me eat a salty cake"

"you burnt the cake, so you partly contributed to it" 

"The stomach ache wasn't worth it" bella scrowled at him

"But it was worth the memory" he said and everywhere became silent again.

"We have come a really long way, Javier.  I personally didn't think we would last that long. I thought the devil might kill us along the way." She sighed, looking at the ceiling. "Thank you" she whispered. "Thank you for being a loving little brother" she said and Javier knew that she was fighting hard not to cry

"Thank you Bella, for always been there for me" he said calmly and silence overtook the atmosphere as they both layed down in deep thoughts.