Chapter 177

I cancel the order and ask for something more modest, yes I cancelled my best friend's order and I made something of a more modest order, something that we would be able to finish without having to look for takeout packs all over the place.

I realise that as dreary as today has been it has been oddly entertaining for me. I wouldn't say my brother experiencing pain was entertaining, but yet it made me see another side to him, to life and to love, this other side that made him do something he would normally not do just to please someone that he liked.

Oakley doesn't seem too entertained by it though. She was really happy when Adrian finally showed up, but yet it seems she isn't so happy now.

" Are you actually blaming yourself for what happened?" I asked a little bit bewildered at the guilt that is on her face.

It tells me that I am right, she's feeling guilty over inviting Adrian over in the first place, if she hadn't invited him over then maybe Scott's birthday would have gone differently, but yet that doesn't sit well with me. It doesn't sit well that with all her consideration for him, and with all she had probably put into get Adrian there she would end up feeling bad at the end of it.

"You know even I who was his sister didn't remember his birthday was today" I tell her looking down at my hands ashamed, she shakes her head like it's nothing.

"It isn't nothing, I was supposed to know of it. I was supposed to be the first one to even wish him happy birthday this morning, I was supposed to have planned a whole party for him, if I had done that maybe you would have avoided all this, but i had forgotten, and why was that, because my life is occupied, my life is occupied with other things and so I'd forgotten the birthday of someone who should be very very special to me" Oakley looks like she's taking in my words but yes she isn't realizing what I tried to imply with them.

"Don't feel guilty, you actually cared enough to do something for him. I didn't care enough to even remember, that shows you a stark difference between the both of us doesn't it. You are a good friend and Adrian is dumb for whatever he's doing, we can't really blame the outcome of everything on ourselves now can we?. You did your best and I'm really sure Scott appreciates you for that".

My words sink in and lightens her mood up a bit, but yet she's someone who doesn't become fully better until the ice cream arrives. She dives into it like she was diving into her life source and the look of pure ecstasy and enjoyment on her face is enough to make me laugh.

It is enough to make me laugh and forget that Clay is sitting just beside me, staring at me with that intense gaze of his again.