Chapter 216

"If you don't want to talk about it, it's okay" He begins his voice lower than my own but yet I sinply wave my hand in front of his face.

I think it would actually do me some good to let my emotions out at this point. I seem to totally forget that it is Aron whom I am talking to, Aron who had wanted to disgrace me in such an horrible way, who had practically dumped me in front of this girl, all because he wanted some action behind the scenes.

I am talking to the same Aron as he looks at me a look of concern on his face.

Well it will seem the events of this day is simple enough to make me free. It is enough to make me not care about him or me talking to him, as I simply begin talking and letting all my fears and insecurities out.

"How exactly do you guys live with yourselves when you do something horrible?".

His face scrunches up in something of a confused expression and I'm guessing that is the look that should be on his face. My question doesn't sound sensible even to me, and I try to rephrase my words once more.

"Do boys have any feelings?" I ask and his eyes snap wide open at this question.

It looks better than him being confused at least. I asked him a direct question, if he decides to remain confused at this then that is his confusion.

 I look outside the windows to see that they are flowers all over the lawn. I make a mental note to go pick some later so as to relieve my emotions from the tax that they have been under.

"You are asking me if boys have emotions?" he says and I nod my head, in that it will be better for me not to feel embarrassed or weird at this discussion. The discussion is already weird enough as it is, and I do not want to prolong it any further than it should be.

"What sort of emotions do you ask about?".

I simply shrug my shoulders and I give him an answer.

"I mean any emotions at all, dosen't your specie feel anything, do they feel pain, or anger, or hurt, or maybe disgrace at how ridiculous their actions might be sometimes?".

I can imagine exactly how my question is sounding too him.

It would seem something of a personal attack because his actions to me have been all but nice, but yet Aron simply looks away into the distance at first.

I had mistaken it as an hurt look but he proves opposite to me later that even if I had felt he should be hurt by my questions, he didn't even grab onto that in the slightest.

"Everyone has emotions, some simply decide to bury it deeper than others. Everyone is always under some sort of pressure from one person or the other, some are even pressurized by life as it is, everyone, simply everyone, has emotions".