Chapter 217

I sigh in frustration at his answer. His answers are cryptic as my own questions are. I'm guessing it is a way of ensuring that he can also be cryptic if I don't become straight forward.

"I'm asking if some people simply feel the impact of what they do to others?".

"Then is this about what Mr Clyde did to you in class this morning?".

My eyes bolt open in surprise. I almost think he might have been there, the thought occurred to me that he might have actually been there and he had not stood up for me.

Maybe I had simply not seen him and for a moment I prepare to get angry. I prepare to get so angry that i will simply shout at him, and rail at him, and let out all the anger in my heart, let it all out at him, but yet the look on his face.

That sincere look that he's giving me tells me that he could not have been there and done nothing. It seems it is only now that I remember exactly how much gossip is good at flying around in this school.

I'm guessing that a student knocking out a teacher with a bag of books is practically gossip worthy, and my own backstory should have come with that occurrence as an added bonus 

"Does everyone know about it?" I ask, and he simply shrugs.

"Is there anything that happens in this school that basically everyone won't end up knowing about?".

I'm guessing that is the truth there, and I let out another long depressed sigh.

"Do you think Mr Clyde ever feels horrible for what he does?".

Again he looks off into the distance, like he just can't give me a straight answer.

"I would feel horrible if I was the one".

That reply is sensible enough and I practically nod my head at this. For some reason I actually feel that is true.

I feel he's telling me the truth. Even if Aron's image in my head has been all but we shattered this past few days, I don't think I've ever really seen him as something of a pervert. I don't think he would ever be that prevented as to carry out of sorts of actions that Mr Clyde carries out and not feel a shred of disgust at himself.

"But I've seen other boys doing it, how do they live with themselves?".

He simply shrugs his shoulders like he's also mystified at the complexity that is his race.

"Most of the time it's not only girls that have emotions. It is not only girls who have been accustomed to a way of living, just the same way some people tell you you have to be decent and you have to sink into the background, it is the same way that some parents tell their sons that they have to be outgoing. They have to see what they want, and take it either by hook or by crook.

The society tells us it doesn't matter what you do because you are the stronger sex. It is simply the stereotype that has been assigned to us".