Chapter 259

You know there is always this weird nostalgic feeling that you have when you see someone in such a situation. It makes me question exactly how my own life is going, it makes me question the importance of Clay and Eras in it.

But I can't really say that they're that important to me as for them to dictate everything about my life, but yet I care about these two boys so much, I care about these two boys so much and we haven't even known each other for a full month, exactly how crazy is that?.

Exactly how crazy is it that all these things seem to be happening so quickly and so fast that I cannot even have the time to comprehend all of it. All at once, I mean my life has been a little roller coaster ride after all this, and I find myself having a change of emotions.

 Well I am aware enough of that now to actually get it. I think that at some point when I was always in my own head I realised something. I don't think I've ever been that person, i have never been the person who would always be lost in her thoughts.

When I was still with Aron, I had him to talk to. I had him to always tell my worries, and to tell them of every little thing that bothered me. He was my everything, he was all I wanted to be and more and so we were strong together like that, having the happiest relationship you could ever have.

Well after what happened I'm guessing that it would be normal for me to retract inside myself, but not a day later I had gotten myself involved with two guys, two guys who had been so nice to me and have basically changed my outlook on life as much as I would not like to admit it.

They are both important to me, just the same way Oakley is important, and the same as Scott is important to me, both of them are also important this is way.

"What you're going to do" I say to her "I'm going to talk to my aunt about this, she can get you a good home and a a little store for you to set up a business in, you can sell pastries, i know you are really good at doing that, you can do any other thing that your heart simply desires to do, you can live your life knowing that you have freed yourself from the shackles of someone who didn't want what was best for you".

My mind is still spinning at how my brother got such an amount of money, exactly how did he even get this much money and I remind myself to ask him about it later. I remind myself to ask him about exactly what his extra-curricular activities entail because as much as I know him, i might not know him.

I remember that there is one thing that I am forgetting. Adrian is here. That can't be good.