Chapter 289

I brace myself as I begin to read the letter.

My eyes skim through it as quickly as it starts and i take in the important parts, I throw away all the other parts, I throw away all the other parts that suddenly make me feel guilty for leaving him, because I'm guessing that is the point of this letter.

To make me feel guilty, even though I'm sure that is not what I meant by his words.

Exactly how do you interprete, "My heart still beats for you but yet you keep me at a distance".

I didn't keep him at a distance, he ruined what we had going, what we had because he wanted to please his mum and he wanted some fun with a girl.

The possibility still lingers at the back of my mind though ,that what if all this hadn't happened, what if I simply come to the point where I'm able to forgive Aron for what he has done, will we still be able to move on and be the happy couple that we were before.

I can already feel some little issues with this plan because two faces appear in my head. Two faces which be a striking similarity to me that I could practically call them one and the same.

Clay and Eras. I don't even know why I am considering a what if.

They both fill my heart at this point, there's that one part of my heart, one tiny tiny part of my heart that is dedicated to them. It's dedicated to two boys who have shown me that not all of them are horrible, some of them are respectful, some of them actually care about what you feel, some of them will make you feel like you have the whole of the world wrapped up inside of you and there's totally nothing that could go wrong.

I can't even consider anyone at this point because as much as I don't want to, as much as I don't want to feel anything at this letter, it drags at my heart.

It drags at my heart in such a violent way that I feel a pound of hurt at what he's saying.

From the contents of this letter it will look like I was the villain in this story, and I don't know why he is writing this. I don't know why he's putting this into paper and going through the pains of getting it into my house.

If he simply wanted to accuse me of leaving him, he should have the guts to come up to me. I didn't leave him.

He made me leave him. He left me in front of this girl, and so he should not come looking back for me when she walks off with another person.

He walked off with another person in front of me, right in front of me, and now he expects me to come back to him because she has also walked off with another person.

I am not going back to him, and for some uncanny reason I don't feel this is really him.