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Why does my heart betray me so much, why do I always end up like this, broken, shattered, unable to be happy. Why do I always have to go for the wrong guy???.
Arya has tasted the absolute worse when it comes to finding love. Subservience, unfaithfulness, heartbreak, abuse. She's had it all and now that Asher says he's through with her, she's reliving the experience all over again. Four times she's given her heart out, four times it's been returned to her broken. But why does this seemingly uncaring guy make her want to unfold her barred heart, why does he want to make her plead for him to love her?
Follow Arya's story as she finds the true meaning of Love and as she finds herself again.

Fall in Love with me, please????

I wake up with a very bad headache.

I wake up with a very bad headache practically to see myself in my room??? Gosh had I been drinking last night?, what did I actually drink last night??.

I actually think it was alcohol, i can't actually believe that, I can't actually believe what I did but I am considering it now. The hangover that I'm having right now should tell me as much.

It seems unbelievable that i had actually taken alcohol, i had actually taken alcohol last night and I wonder exactly why that is.

I groan as another headache races through my skull.

I check the time on the clock at the far side of the room and I see that it is still night.

It is still night as this is practically just a few minutes past seven.

Oakley and Arya should still be up, theu should still be up either watching something or doing something because I doubt Adrian will stay this late.

He is another problem that i do not want to handle right now, he is one that I cannot handle because i do not have the time.

I do not have the time to think about exactly what I want to do about him.

I throw the thought out of my mind, i throw the thought out of my mind as I stand up and I walk into the bathroom.

Clean and neat as always, enough to make me smile to myself. At least personal hygiene is one of the things that I have marked down, one more down the list of things that I have successfully cultivated.

A knowledge of what to do in life is not one of those things, one of the thing i have nothing considered is the knowledge of what to do in life and I have to say that this particular skill is stumping me.

It is stumping me quite a bit because i cannot just understand it.

I mean exactly what, exactly what am I supposed to do in life?.

Can I just live my life in my own shell of resolution?.

Can i just live my life as i want and why is it that Oakley is always trying to push me towards something I do not want to do.

It's like she's trying to push me towards something that never goes well at all and I have to chuckle to myself.

I have to chuckle to myself at this because I went out today, i actually took myself out and did an outrageous thing, the baseline here is that I do not need Oakley to push me anymore.

I do not anyone to make me do reckless things and even if I do, i mostly do it because of her.

Well not mostly because of her but with something like meeting Adrian at that fashion house on my birthday.

My birthday had been a bust. My birthday had been a bust all because of him and I do not want to think about that.

That's why I cannot bother to ponder on how that makes me feel right now, for some reason I actually felt like Celine and I were arguing over Adrian, i almost felt like Celine felt I was a threat towards jer useship of Adrian and i cannot think of this right now, my head is pounding.

I am slashing water all over my face now, I'm splashing water all over my face now hoping that it helps me to remember something of what happened earlier but still I find out I can not.

Scott's pov.