Chapter 361

Oakley rolls her eyes at this. She rolls her eyes at this as she looks at me.

"You do know that happiness is actually an emotion" she says and I nod my head.

"I know happiness is an emotion but still, you get what I'm trying to say"

"But how can he possibly be happy when he will not even let himself be happy"

"He will let himself be happy" I say looking at her and almost raising my voice.

I don't know why this question makes me feel oddly agitated, I don't know why it makes me feel like that.

"You said that but there is every possibility that Scott can simply go to back to his old self"

"He has been happy with us these past few days has he not?, Or would you say that you haven't noticed that?".

She nods her head.

"I noticed it, but yet what about when we all leave each other?"

"That isn't going to happen anytime soon" I say looking at her and she frowns.

"Eras is leaving already, how long until one of us decides to go?"

"Are you planning to leave anytime soon?" I say looking at her and she shakes her head.

"Not yet, but what happens when I do?, both of you go back to living your lives and then what happens when you gain admission into college, what happens when you gain admission into different colleges?, do you really plan to keep on following him around all his life?" 

She's asking a fundamental question, she's asking a fundamental question I should have asked myself but again the answer comes as easily to me as anything else does.

"Sometimes, you really need to leave people to live their lives. I don't really think that I will be the one to dictate how Scott lives his life. If he says that it values reason before emotion then it is fine and okay. I put my emotions first before reason, because my emotions determine how I feel in that particular moment. Reason should naturally come first. We only act on emotions based on impulse".

"He is also supposed to be acting on emotions. He is eighteen for crying out loud, he's still young, he still has his whole life ahead of him, why should I keep his heart so locked up because he wants to?"

"He has a reason for that, he has a reason for everything". I'm getting frustrated.

"So you believe he really has a reason to not be happy?" Oakley says this and I nod my head.

"Do you remember what happiness did to us, do you know what happiness did to me, the pursuit of happiness broke me four times, it broke me four consecutive times and now it breaks me again because I did not stick to reason. I did not reason the actions that I carried out, I saw each and every person was doing so and I did not even reason the fact that jumping from boyfriend to boyfriend was wrong. Happiness is not always right, sometimes it makes you irrational and then it breaks you".