Chapter91: ready

"say something baby?"Alex said waking me up from my thoughts.

"I.. I really.. don't know what... to say."I stuttered feeling some tears welling up in my eyes. I looked up blinking them away."Alex, this..you know I don't like those things. I just want to live normally, I'm not some kind of celebrity or a famous billionaire like you that I will be worried about my life or scared that someone is gonna hurt me. I'm not a threat to anyone, so no one should be after me right? Alex I can't have bodyguards, maybe the driver is alright then. Please don't assign bodyguards to me."I told him and the tears I've been trying hard to prevent run down my cheeks like a dam that has broke it's banks.

Alex sat up then he held me in his arms. I rested my head on his chest and Alex kept kissing my forehead to calm me down. I sobbed for a while and I felt Alex sigh."baby.."he called and I looked up. He wiped my tears and then he kissed my nose.

"Okay you can keep the driver."he said and I smiled but I saw his lips part.  He's not done.

"But.."I probed for what he was gonna say.

"But you will have at least one bodyguard following you. I can't risk your safety baby. It's true you are not a celebrity or all those you said but you are my wife now and I live in a dangerous world okay. People already know you are my woman out there and they can try to use you to hurt me. I'm sorry baby. I know this is not the world you want to live in but please bear it for me because you are my world too and you live in my world. My world is dangerous."he said then he smiled. I felt like I should start understanding his world.

"What do you mean by dangerous world?"I asked him.

"That's a story for another day. When the time is right I'm gonna tell you."he said in a way to dismiss the story. That got me curious even more.

"Alex, are you maybe in danger?"I asked him out of concern.

"Sometimes. Baby let's drop the subject please."he said holding my cheeks but I didn't want to drop the subject I need answers.

"Alex, no. What do you mean by sometimes?"I asked him and he kissed my lips. Damnit he is using this as a distraction or maybe is to shut me up. He thought well because I wouldn't have shut up. After the kiss, I was panting for air and the hearing Alex's story was the last thing I wanted right now. I needed that kiss again. I looked at his lips and I pulled him down. I didn't know I had missed his kisses this much. The last I kissed him was in the car and it was just for a few seconds before that I can't remember when because yesterday we were having this stupid fight.

Alex groaned softly as he lay me down on the bed and I was now under him as he kissed me senseless . The kiss was becoming rough, way too far from gentle and Alex had taken control as always.

I felt the urge to press my body against his so I pulled him closer to me so our bodies were pressing against each other and he groaned again this time a little louder. I felt like I wanted this. I don't know what I wanted but my body wanted this.

Alex started running his hands on my body and I felt like my sanity was getting lost or was it lost already. His hands did things that I once felt when I was at my grandma's house. He did that and he's doing it again. I don't know how it reached here, but I swear I don't want it to stop. I felt his hands hold my boobs and I couldn't help a moan that escaped my mouth involuntary. He started kissing my neck and then he went down to the collarbone.

He looked up at me and our eyes met. I could see how his eyes were filled with some kind of fire that gave me goosebumps allover my body and I shuddered a little. He started pulling my shirt up , well his shirt but I always wear his clothes to sleep so it's technically his. I didn't stop him. I wanted him to pull it up. I don't know what was happening to me but I wanted this. Everything.

He pulled my shirt until it reached my breast our eyes still locked on each other. He brought his mouth to my left breast and took the nipple in his mouth. I moaned louder as I arched my body so he can have more access.

"Alex.."I moaned his name. It felt so good. He removed the shirt from the rest of the body and my upper was bare. I don't always wear bra when sleeping so there was nothing else to be removed. He started massaging the left breast while his tongue played with my right nipple. I couldn't hold it anymore. I brought my hands and wrapped them around his neck moaning his name over and over again.

He pulled his mouth away and he stopped carressing my breast and I opened my eyes to be met with his that screamed of desire." What? Why did you stop?"I asked him confused as to why he stopped.

He looked into my eyes and I shivered a little because of how intense the look was." You are so beautiful baby."he said and I smiled." The first thing that attracted me is those eyes of yours. They are the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. Who the hell have this kind of eyes huuh? I can't even tell the colour."he said and chuckled.

"What are you doing Alex?"I asked him because this is not what I wanted right now. I wanted his mouth on mine.

"I'm appreciating the beauty of my wife. You are so beautiful and you know what? Everything is mine. This soft lips are mine, these sexy boobs I love are mine too. Only mine forever and ever. Do you hear that?"he said as he breathed in the area that bridged my breast. His eyes were on mine and I couldn't even form a sentence so to answer his questions I nodded my head." I want your voice baby."he ordered.

"Yes Alex everything is yours. Now please can you continue what you were doing?"I told him and I'm sure my eyes showed what I wanted clearly.

"What was I doing baby?"he asked and I glared at him to have him chuckle."I don't know what I doing, so if you don't say anything then I might not continue."he said and I groaned."okay tigress, okay."he said when I started unwrapping my hands on his neck. He started kissing me again and I cooled down. I tightened my hands on his neck when he started going downwards again.

Within no time, his lips were kissing my boobs again. I closed my eyes as my toes curled when he took one of my nipples in his mouth. Damn, this feeling. I moaned when he bit my nipple then my hands started moving on his body. I couldn't help it okay. I wanted to feel those hard muscles of his. I opened my eyes to be met with his.

"Alex, I want to touch your chest."I said looking at his eyes. I was aware of his little brother poking on me as well as his eyes that were filled with desires. He wanted me and I was ready to give myself to him tonight.