Chapter92: best for you

Alex removed his shirt and I stared at his toned chest. I looked at him to see him smirking. Of course he's smirking. I stretched my hands out to touch his chest that was hard as rock. I run my hands down to his abs but I stopped when I saw the swell in his pants. I looked away immideately and I heard Alex chuckle.

"Why did you stop sweetheart?"he asked and I couldn't meet his eyes so I just continued to look away." Don't be shy with me baby. It's not like this is new. You have seen my Dick and touched it too so why are you so ashamed? You can touch if you want."Alex shamelessly said and then he came closer to me and he looked at me. Our eyes met and I shivered when I saw the desire in them.

"Alex.."I called his name. I didn't know why I was calling his name but I felt like it. I needed to.

"What is it baby?"he asked his voice horse. I looked at him and before I knew it, I pushed Alex on the big bed and I was now straddling him. I could feel his dick poking at my entrance and I felt some kind of fire that has been traveling in body increase. I looked at Alex and I saw how shocked he was. He should be shocked because he must have not expected any of this. I didn't expect it too but now I'm straddling him and all I want to do is move against his dick.

Well, I want to move but I don't know how. I looked at Alex for help and he chuckled." I thought you are so skilled baby."he said but he brought his hands on my hips anyway. He started to lead me back and forth and his Dick rubbed my cunt. This feeling was spectacular. 

He led me for some time before I took control. He groaned when I increased a little pace. His face right now looked so dreamy and I couldn't help myself as a moan escaped my mouth. I felt something build up and I felt like I have to finish building it.

I looked at Alex who was moaning softly and our eyes met. I increased the pace and I moaned some more. I love this man so much. That's the only thing I could think of at the moment.

"Alex.."I moaned his and I felt his grip on my hips tighten. He must be close because I am too.

"Yes... Baby..fuck!! how can you be this sexy? I'm coming baby. You are too and we are gonna come together. Okay?"he said and I increased the pace again.

I nodded my head at Alex's words. I made some few moves then I came and a few seconds later Alex came too with a groan. I laid on his chest tired and completely out of it. I can't believe I just did what I did. I don't count myself as an aggressive person but damn, this man is always making me do things I myself don't understand.

"I love you baby."Alex said when his breathing turned to normal.

"I love you too."I said still on his chest breathing on his manly scent and that Ross scent that he always have and some hint of sweat. I was a sweat mess too.

"We need to freshen up. I just came all over my pants."he said and I got off his chest to look at him smiling shyly. I don't know what he thinks of me right now but I don't care. I would have given myself to him tonight anyway.

He stood up with me in his arms and we went to the bathroom. He placed me on the edge of the bathtub and turned on the water to run in the tub. After the tub was filled with water he helped me strip naked and then he stripped too and we got in.

He helped me wash my back that was facing him. I had held my knees in my arms and rested my chin on my knees enjoying Alex's caress on my back which was supposed to be a bath but it had turned to caress somehow.

"Alex,"I called

"Mmh"he hummed in reply.

"I would have liked to break my virginity tonight."I suddenly said and I felt his hand stop what it was doing at my back. I turned around to look at him and I was met by a shocked Alex. Why is he shocked. Didn't he want that too?" Didn't you want that too?"I asked my thoughts out loud.

"What? Noo.. I didn't want that."he said and I felt like needles have been dropped on me and they have started prickling my heart. Why would he not want to take my virginity? We are married now so there is nothing that's stopping him.

"W-what?"I asked stuttering. I couldn't explain the hurt I was feeling right now.

"Yeah... I didn't want to take your virginity tonight and not any time soon."he said and I felt like the whole world is crumbling down on me. How can he say that? He's hurting me for fucks sake. He was hard and I thought that he wanted me. It's obvious that he did right? Why is he saying things like this now?

I couldn't look at him. I looked away when I felt my eyes sting due to tears that were welling up. I got out of the bathtub and went to the shower to take a shower. I don't want to take a shower with him at all.

"Baby,, what is wrong?"he asked and I didn't bother to look at him.

"Nothing. I just feel like I want to take a shower alone."I said and then I got out after I was done. I went to the closet and wore my usual night wears and went to bed.

I wanted to be fast asleep by the time Alex was coming out of the bathroom. I don't want to talk to him anymore. He talks without thinking and I can't believe he does this every time. This is just not right.

I was busy thinking when I felt hands on my waist. When did he get here? I mean, how long have I been thinking. Alex rested his head on my shoulder and he spooned me.

"Tell me what is wrong baby and don't tell me nothing because there is of course something."Alex said and I didn't say anything. If I can't say nothing then what can I say. Nothing." Was it because of what I said?"he asked and I wanted to scream at him telling him hell yeah but I just kept quiet." Okay, I'm sorry I said it like that but you could have asked why I said that."he said and I turned to look at him.

"Why did you say that?"I asked and he chuckled.

"Because, first, I have a lot of things to do before I do such a thing with you. It's such a big step of your life and I want to give you the best I can. I need to give you a lot. We need to discuss a lot too with you and get to know each other more. I haven't even taken you for a date which you value so much. You deserve the best honey and the best is what I'm gonna give you. So please don't be mad anymore. I just want the best for you baby."Alex said and I felt really touched. I can't believe he was thinking about me all this while. I love him even more now. It's like I fall in love with him more each and every day. He just does this and I can't help myself.