Chapter 109: "You are not me..."

Sat at a small round table by the window. Under the bright moonlight, there were now two figures sitting opposite each other.

One is the adult version of Thea who has a gloomy face, and the other is the small version of Thea who always has an innocent smile on her face.

"This hallucination is too strong..." Thea massaged her dizzy forehead helplessly.

"[Hey, what kind of expression are you making? You are trying to deny my existence? Please look at my face!]"

The small version of Thea got down from the chair, and she walked around the adult version of Thea in circles.

The adult version of Thea who didn't want to see the figure of the small version of Thea for the time being, kept turning her head everywhere to avoid her gaze.

"[Look at me! Look at me! I'm right here!]"

"Stop being annoying! Why are these hallucinations so strong!? Go way!"

Seeing the adult version of Thea covering her ears like a child, and closing her eyes tightly. The small version of Thea puffed out her cheeks in dissatisfaction.

"[Why do you refuse to see me? Isn't this your wish?]"

"...."

"[Come on, say something. You know covering your ears won't work. If we look at it from a normal person's perspective, you're technically talking to yourself right now.]"

"...."

The adult version of Thea immediately turned her body backwards, refusing to speak.

The little version of Thea who saw this, became furious.

"[This is why I hate adults. They always keep all their troubles to themselves, and secretly drive themselves into depression.]"

"[You expected to see me, and here I am, talking to you right now. Now, when I'm in your presence, why are you suddenly so quiet?]"

Hearing this, the adult version of Thea opened and closed her mouth several times, and in the end, she could only bite her lower lip tightly.

"I hate you."

The adult version of Thea gave off a tone that was almost the same as the injured little animal.

"[Good, now you start talking. Then, what does that mean?]"

Open tightly closed eyelids. The adult version of Thea can only look down with a sad look.

"Because... It's you they want, not me."

"[...Ah?]"

Had a moment of silence for a while, and decided to turn around to see the little version of her. The adult version of Thea looked at herself with a complicated look.

"Ever since I combined the secondary consciousness, and the primary consciousness, our personalities have changed so much that it's like seeing a different person."

"I'm fine, but what about other people's opinions!?"

"Kiana, Siegfried, Himeko, Aurora...do you think I haven't read their memories!? What are they thinking about me!!!"

"I... I... Also don't want to be like this..."

Seeing this adult version of her became very depressed, and didn't dare to look herself again. The little version of Thea could only helplessly shrug her shoulders.

"[An identity crisis again huh... You know, you have a serious mental problem about denying your own existence. I suggest you take a break like big sister Bianka said. This illness of yours is getting worse.]"

Ignoring the sarcasm of the little version of Thea. The adult version of Thea slammed the table beside her hard, as if she was venting all her anger.

She clenched her fists tightly.

"Do you understand... why I started to enter the stigmata room very rarely?"

"Because I don't want to see those eyes again!"

"Their eyes full of worry, and pity, they are all not for me!!"

"It's all just for you! Silly Thea, stubborn Thea, selfish Thea! They only care about you, NOT ME!!!"

Stunned, found her being shouted at suddenly. The small version of Thea raised her eyebrows in confusion, and she saw this adult version of Thea, with watery eyes.

"[Do you know...]"

"[...How painful is it to say all those things to yourself?]"

"[Why did you hurt me...]"

"You're not me..." The adult version of Thea's body trembled silently, as if she was holding back her tears.

"[No, I am you, and always have been.]"

The little version of Thea walked up to the adult version of Thea, and she handed over the Baba Homu doll she always held, to her.

"[The only difference between the two of us may be from our responsibility. I knew what would come in the future, but I ignored it. As for you, you don't.]"

"[I am stupid Thea, and you are smart Thea. You can always be me, but I can't be you. You are better than me.]"

"[So... Don't cry. You make me feel sad too.]" The little version of Thea wiped her teary eyes.

Hear the sound of muffled sobs. The adult version of Thea raised her head, and she immediately saw the little version of Thea who was crying in front of her, with panicking.

"Sorry, please stop crying. I'm really sorry for yelling at you before."

"[It's too late... hiks... I'm already crying... hiks...]"

"Then come here."

Gets down from the chair, and immediately took the little version of Thea into her arms. The adult version of Thea smiled gently.

"Now... I don't hate you anymore. Thank you for hearing all my complaints."

The small version of Thea bit her lower lip tightly: "[No, I refuse your apology. I'm starting to hate you now.]"

"....Then what should I do to earn your apology?"

"[Return Baba Homu.]"

"Here, take it."

"[....I still hate you.]"

"Yes I know."

"[Apologize again.]"

"I refuse."

"[I hate you!!!]"

....

Sit by the window wall, and make the little version of Thea sit on her lap. Even though these were all just hallucinations she was making up, she somehow felt like they all felt very real.

She meets her former self, and has a heart to heart talk with her. Letting go of all the burdens that she had been keeping.

Wine...

Now she understood why everyone loved getting drunk so much.

Thea closed her eyes very comfortably.

"[Bad news for you, salmon. It seems like it's time for me to leave.]"

"Hngg..."

Raised her eyebrows in confusion, and noticed that her head was growing dizzy. Seeing the figure of this small version of her start to fade away, she immediately grabbed the wine bottles scattered beside her in a hurry.

"[Stop, What are you trying to do? You look like a drug addict, please stop that. You look so pathetic.]"

Realizing that the wine bottle in her hand had already been kicked by the small version of Thea far away. The adult version of Thea could only stare at her other self with sad eyes.

"But... If I recover, won't you disappear? I want to talk to you a little longer."

"I don't want to say goodbye yet..."

The little version of Thea couldn't help but sigh: "[You're silly. If you miss me, just drink some wine next time. Now, you can't.]"

".... Why?"

"[...Do you realize how many bottles of wine you've already drunk? This wine rack is almost empty, and you don't notice at all!]"

"Ah, really? I thought I only drank a few bottles..."

"[You are really stupid. Really stupid.]"

The small version of Thea could only shake her head helplessly.

Can feel that this adult version of her still feels very reluctant to part with her. The little version of Thea thought for a moment, and suddenly she had a very genius idea.

"[Hey adult me, want to do something silly?]"

".... Do what?"

The little version of Thea smiled very slyly: "[Doing something that will definitely make people angry.]"

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In the stigmata room...

Because it was the middle of the night, and everyone must have gone to bed. Even though the stigmata room right now felt very empty, without anyone's presence. Thea snapped her fingers, and a familiar figure, immediately appeared in front of her while still sleeping soundly on her bed.

"Kiana, wake up! Come on, get up quickly!"

"Hmm... What's wrong... is it already morning?"

Feeling her body continue to be shaken very hard. Kiana suddenly felt very annoyed, and she immediately brushed off the hand that was on her shoulder at this time.

"Alright, alright, I'll wake up!! Don't shake me again!"

Sitting on her bed in a daze, half sleepy. Kiana raised her head in confusion, and she could see her sister Thea, smiling broadly at her.

Thea's face was now very red, adding to the charm of her beauty, and the sweet smile on her face managed to make Kiana silent for a few moments.

"Are you awake? Great, I just wanted to tell you to go to sleep soon. It's late at night."

Kiana: "???"

Has a black question mark on her face. Kiana saw Thea running out of her room, with laughing out loud.

Thea: "Muahahahaha...!!!"

Kiana: "...."

Even though she didn't know what exactly was going on, she felt very irritated for some reason.

Damn, waking me up in the middle of the night just to tell me to sleep early!?

I feel so angry!!!