Chapter 33

Sehun's POV

One thing is for sure, I SHOULD NEVER HAVE TOLD THEM ABOUT MY AFFAIR! I mean, they don't even know the name, only the fact that she is one of our stylists. Today they are an act of complete disaster.

Baek Hyun has been eyeing me and every little thing that I am doing. Every stylist that I talk to and every smile I give to literally every girl.

Loey, being the freaky bro he is, keeps smiling at me like a maniac. He may not say a word but those damn teasing smiles can tell anyone including completely clueless people what is happening with my life.

Exo-ls are the best investigators I've ever seen my entire life and if they decide to investigate behind the weird attitude of my bros, I'm doomed.

Then there was Xiumin. Every time I looked at him, he observed how nervous I was. He keeps giving me the 'You got this' smile and sometimes adding the thumbs up, quite helping yet quite distressing.

I keep wondering exactly what is going on inside his head. Does he regret it too much? What if one day he decides he can't take the pain anymore? My brother is strong, but love is even stronger.

On the other hand, Ha Ra was nowhere to be found. I haven't talked to her this whole time and it is stressing the hell out of me. I texted her this morning and she didn't reply to the text. The worst thing is, I don't even know where she lives. What kind of boyfriend am I? I am so embarrassed about this. God!

"What makes you so stressed out this morning?" Baek Hyun is to never let me go today. I roll my eyes as his hand is now on my shoulder and I am quite sure he saw me, making weird expressions and running my hand through my hair at my own thoughts.

"And don't ruin your hair. We wouldn't want to stress our stylists. He smirks as he pats my back and goes back to his seat. His hair is messier than mine and I am sure he will mess it up again at our fan meeting. He always does that.

After what feels like forever, we finally go to the meeting room. It's been a long time since I've done this with most of my members being here and the loud noises of fans as we enter the room make me even more excited.

"Hello everyone! We are Exo," We bow down for seconds. The meeting goes on for two hours, just chitchatting with our buddies Exo ls while my mind partially imagines things about her. With where these imaginations are taking me, I really hope she is okay.

Everyone parted ways around seven. I would say our schedule wasn't that tight today, though I have to work all night with Chan Yeol for our upcoming album plus the group's comeback. Heck of a loaded works. I hope everything turns out well.

And that being said, I know I am supposed to focus my mind on the work but nothing seems okay with me. I haven't seen her for days.

After everything we shared back in New York, I thought we were finally something greater.

One day, she just came home looking like she saw a ghost and then went straight to sleep. She didn't want to talk about it and I let her be. Did she get angry because of that? Was it too Irresponsible of me to act like I understood that she did not want to talk about it? Should I ask for some advice? But then from who? My brothers? Oh hell no.

Then the night took place. We fucked over and over again. More intense than the previous times we were out of breath. Her motions expressed well how she craved for me to be in her. It was the best night anyone would ever ask for. I was the happiest. We were like that for the next two days. Wait, or maybe I showed I was too greedy. Maybe she thinks I am the 'celebrity' kind of guy. Was I supposed to control myself from her temptations?

The next day, she flew back to Korea. We couldn't go together because... well... You know. Everyone everywhere. We did a video call after she arrived and we talked for like half an hour. I'm quite sure I haven't said anything wrong. But then, I didn't ask her about what was bothering her that day. Was that the reason?

I flew back to Korea two days later. Now it's been two weeks since I have seen her. She would not reply to any of my text messages and it's been killing me ever since. That is not the part that I have told my brothers. That I am seeing someone who still is not sure if it is the right thing to see a celebrity after being shattered by another one.

At least that could be a valid reason for her to act like this. And since I came here, this is the first time I have had to do something that requires me to do makeup. And she is not here.

"It's Ha Ra, right?" The fact that Kyung so knows how to blow up my heart with his calm voice will be my death cause one day.

"What?"

"Of all the stylists, she was the only one absent and you looked like you were looking for something." He is now wearing his eyeglasses and he looks like a kid. Smart ass. I wonder how Suho couldn't notice this when Kyung So did. I don't say a thing. I just look at him. I was lying against my car which happens to be next to his.

"Did something happen?"

"I don't know man," I frown as I cross my arms. Did something really happen? Two weeks is a long time and I wonder if it's dumb of me to still text her every morning and every night. I even sent demos on her WhatsApp. She never replied. She hasn't even opened them.

"You should go talk to her," He steps closer and pats my back. What he doesn't know is I don't even know where she lives. Oh God! I am losing my damn mind.

"Hyung!" He turns around.

"What should I say when I see her?" He looks aside for a while, a small smile is placed on his face. Now he looks like he is having this fairy tale only he can see.

"What's inside your heart? What do you really want to tell her."

Kyungso's POV

I saw her. Her face was a little moody. I was the first one to arrive today as my own home irritated me. I was bored. Every practice felt lame. I couldn't sleep. No lyrics came inside my head either. I was scrolling through my phone when I saw her. She didn't see me when she suddenly got the urge to use the bathroom. I followed her, I was worried.

I heard her vomiting, followed by cries. I couldn't help but open the door. She was devastated when she saw me. My eyes registered what she was holding. A pregnancy test kit. She quickly hid it behind her, "Please get out," she pleaded.

I couldn't say a thing. I couldn't move either. My feet just became numb. Her tears touched the floor just like how her whole world was.

Finally, slowly, my feet took me to her. She didn't resist. My arms slowly wrapped themselves around her.

For a while, we stayed like that. She cried her heart out as I patted her back. It was clear she didn't want the baby. Finally, she got the man she always dreamed of and suddenly another forever obstacle appears. I couldn't help but notice those details as she was mumbling when she was crying.

Time went by. Sehun arrived. For a while, he looked distressed. He felt like he was going crazy. It was clear that he was not in his right mind no matter how much he tried to control himself. And now I have confirmed it's her. She is the girl Sehun is seeing. The question is, does he know about his girlfriend's situation? Will he accept her regardless?