CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT:OUR CLOSURE WITH DAD....

HYUNA'S POV

We had decided to clean out house, since Mina and Yuri were moving to the university we had decided to clear out granny's room and also sort the things we needed from the things we didn't, it wasn't as easy seeing that granny kept alot of documents, books clothes shoes and photos of when our dad was young and when she was young as well, it was like a trip down memory lane for us as we cleaned out everything.

As I cleared things from granny's room, I found a box that seemed to have been pushed under the bed, in side it were letters that were allocated from dad's prison to granny's house.

" Woah they are many....!" Mina exclaimed as we put them on the table," What should we do with them?" I asked as Yuri picked one up and opened it," We read them.." she said as I grabbed it from her," Iam as curious as you but there is no way we are reading over 30 letters before cleaning out everything in the house." I said as I gathered them and put them back in the box," So we read them after cleaning?" she asked," Of course." I said as we all stood up and agreed.

We were all curious I could tell seeing how many times I caught Yuri and Mina staring at the box in which the letters were kept, we weren't sure what was in them so it made our hearts even more and more curious to find out.

After all the cleaning was done, we all sat in granny's room and started reading the letters one by one..

SAMPLES OF THE LETTERS

Dear Hyuna, Yuri and Mina

How are my baby girls doing? I know I don't have the right to ask after everything that I did,and I know you are suffering just as much...for my wrong doings..I can't even face you but every time I think of your faces when I was being dragged to that police car, the betrayal the confusion and sadness they beared haunts me every single day of my life...no words I can say can make you forgive me and that's absolutely okay, but I just hope you can all continue living your lives...I don't want what I did to throw a dark cloud on your future..please keep smiling...for me atleast that would make me feel less guilty for everything that I did.

With love Dad.

Hyuna came to visit me in prison today and told me she was severing all ties with me, I couldn't look her straight in the eyes because what I had done was unforgivable, I could see the betrayal she felt and my heart was aching for my girls, how could I the person they look up to most ruin their lives to this point.

love dad

I know that you still really mad at me Mom but I appreciate you getting the girls out of this city that had turned into hell for them I just hope that they can live a good life from today on wards.

love dad

Mom, thank you for sending me pictures of the girls, it warmed my heart seeing them smile so brightly.

love dad

There were many more letters in the box, some only had three to four lines but still make us cry Soo much, not a single letter didn't warm our hearts...it just felt really good to know that regardless of what dad had done and regardless of how hurtful of words we said to him, he still kept inquiring about us...yes we were mad at him and we were angry about how he could do such a horrible thing but that never took away the fact that he's the same man who always spared an umbrella for us and stood in the rain, the man that bought Mina her first guitar hence making her develop the love for music she had now, the same man who was both a mom and a dad to all three of us after Mom died, what he did was absolutely unforgivable since he robbed off someone else of their happiness but who are we to turn our backs on him like the rest of the world had done...

" I need water." Yuri said as she stood up and went to the kitchen," I can't believe dad sent these." Mina said as she wiped the tears from her eyes," Granny must have hid them away because she was scared we weren't ready." I said as Yuri came back with a glass of water for each one of us," So what do we do now..." Yuri asked," Do we reply to him, or do we ignore them..and hide them away never to be found again." she added," Dad was a bad man but not a bad father...as much as I blamed him for whatever happened..I still feel like non of us will get closure untill we see him." Mina suggested," We don't need to forgive him...we just need to see him and spill out hearts out for him...maybe that would make us less burden each time we have to talk about him." Mina added as we all agreed, frankly speaking I can't talk about dad without feeling my heart ache..or having tears in my eyes, may be meeting him again one more time was the closure we all needed.

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" Take deep breaths.." I said as we all held hands," Are you ready?" I asked as both Yuri and Mina replied with a yes," Let's go." I said as we entered the prison gate.

As we sat there waiting for dad to come out, we were all feeling anxious we didn't know how he would be looking now and mostly what he would say to us or this was going to end with us fighting and leaving without even saying what we had came to say..." Iam scared." Yuri said as I held her hand," We are doing this together." I said as we all waited.

Dad came out, nothing much had changed about him except that he had grown a really thick beard,he also had scratches and those are impossible to be without especially in prison,he seemed quite shocked yet relieved to see us as he sat on the other side, we were separated with a glass partition, we could only talk with each other using coded telephones," Who wants to go first?" I asked as Yuri stretched out her hand," I will." she said as the rest of us left the booth.

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YURI'S POV

Staring at dad from this glass just bought tears in my eyes,the way he was looking at me didnt make things better," Dad.." I said with a shaky voice," Can you stop crying... because you making me cry too." I said as he wiped his tears," Dad...we both know we could have met in prison at some point...since you said that me being so much of a hot head could land me in jail some time if I wasn't careful." I added as he chuckled," But I guess the heavens had other plans." I added," How have you been dad." I asked," Have you been eating enough..." I added as he nodded," Iam not good at this..I came with all these words prepared in my head but I can't seem to find them right now." I said," Iam sorry." he said," Iam sorry for having ruined my chances of being with you..." he added as I put my hand over my mouth and cried," Iam in no position to forgive you dad...but you should stop blaming your self now...I don't hate you..." I said..." If it makes you any happier..iam going to the police academy..like you used said I'll put my strong willed personality and capability to fight to good use." I added as he tried to smile through the pain," That's all I have to say...Good bye dad." I continued as I put down the telephone and walked out of the booth.

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MINA'S POV

" I made it to music school...iam going to be a good musician..so in a few years you can turn on the tv and see me shining brightly on stage....you won't be on stage with me as we earlier had planned but I just hope you know that I didn't give up on my dream." I said as dad nodded happily," Yuri must have said most of what I want to say to you...but I'll just say one more thing..you might have failed at being a good human being but you were never a bad father and I appreciate all you did for us...so don't blame your self for ruining our lives because as you can see we are doing okay." I added as he just shed tears...I couldn't stay in the booth any longer because staring at him cry made me cry alot as well," Stay healthy and safe dad." I said as I rushed out.

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HYUNA'S POV

" I said most of the things I wanted to say to you the last time I came, and I know I sweated that I wouldn't come back again but here iam...dad..iam taking good care of my sisters, so don't worry about them and worry about your self instead...we are doing alright and we shall keep doing alright...take care of your self as well." I said as I stood to leave when I remembered something," This was left by Granny...I guess she wrote it before she passed on...she might have wanted to tell you something." I said as I passed him the letter and walked outside, We all looked back to see him being take back to his confinement," I don't know this feeling...iam really sad yet Soo relived at the same time." Mina said as she passed her hand on her chest," I feel it too...I guess we really needed this." I replied as we all turned to leave," Good bye dad!" we all said as we moved hand in hand away from the prison.

Our closure with dad,was an emotional yet relieving one..it gave all three of us peace of mind and courage to talk about him without tearing up...we had decided that we neither hated him nor loved him, we had decided that dad must have been a horrible human being but was the best dad, and as much as we can't..if we would turn back the clock then we would have fought hard for him not to commit such a grave sin that separated him from not only the world but his family.

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