56.Maturity

It felt like a long time that I lay there, trying to will myself to sleep. I felt relaxed, but as if my body just wasn't ready to turn off for the night.

As i lay there I tried to keep my mind as clear as possible, but I was rather unsuccessful. Thoughts kept popping into my mind. I couldn't help it. I couldn't stop thinking about what my life would be back like when we got back home. Undoubtedly and unavoidably, it would be completely different in every way. It was a change that I had wanted, sure, but regardless all change was still a little scary. The fear of the unknown is pretty nerve wracking.