13~ if only

Xander POV

It's been 3 years since my best friend died. A week ago we got a letter from the Queen saying she'll be coming for a pack visit. She arrived today. All week Izzy has been staying in office late. The twins are starting to ask where their mother is they hardly see her. I'm usually asleep when she gets home.

She's been working so hard to be a good Alpha. I've been feeling really down lately next week is Xavier and mines birthday. Izzy and I still celebrate my birthday. But every year I catch a small piece of guilt in the alpha eyes. Izzy blames herself for her brother's death. Every year I tell her it's not it's not her fault but she never believes me

To get through the guilt she feels she works herself to death. I miss my mate dearly every time she's away. I'm constantly trying to make it up but her absence in the kids life. She loves them but she's not around because of the guilt.

Her brother died 3 years ago and she still hung up on guilt and blaming herself. I understand it was a hard loss it was a hard loss for me too. But I wish you would just stop beating herself up about it. It was not her fault if anything it was that Alpha that started the war's fault.

If only things were different. If only my best friend was still here. If only Life was it unexpected.

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Bella POV

I've noticed there's a lot of memorials for my mate. I guess he was really loved in this pack. It's like every turn I make I see something dedicated to him. But the biggest Memorial I've seen was in the pack house. It was huge pictures from his childhood to his teens. There was even pictures of him and his sister.

Speaking of his sister from what I gather she's a smart and intelligent woman. Not only that but a great Alpha. I think my mother made the right choice. Yes the death of my mate was hard for his family. But if he hadn't died I would never have met him. Not only had I not met him but his sister would it be the great Alpha she is today.

Life has unexpected turns all around us. You just got to look up and forward to the good things. Yes bad things happen but they're not always bad. Sometimes you've got to look for the good things in the bad things. Think of the bad things like the nice guy it's all black but it has bright stars and the Moon in it. You've got to look for the moon and stars in the bad things.

If only people could see but there's always a good thing in a bad thing.

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Ravens POV

After talking to the witches and getting access and William walk back to the pack house into the room. Wondering what the prophecy meant. If only she didn't talk in riddles.