CHAPTER -30(last chapter) ( the devine repentance and a new journey towards love)

Evelina decided not to commit sucide like this.

She stood in front of the mirror and watched over her belly. It's so slim and empty.

She looked at her wedding rings.

There's a big and expensive diamond in it. She touched that.

Then Evelina's began to walk towards Jordan's chamber. He's staying in his previous Prince Manor that is a little far from Evelina's chamber.

She stepped outside. Some servants bowed to her. Evelina smiled at them.

Then she Begun to walk again. On the left side , there's a garden. Evelina looked over there from the upstairs.

Martha and Daniel playing there. The royal mother(Jordan's mother) looking After them sitting there in a distance.

Evelina looked at Daniel. He's sweet . How happy he is. Jordan never got this type of chance to spend some time with his mother. She has always been busy in fighting with other Empresses. Jordan never had a carefree childhood like Daniel.

He must have strugglled throughout his life. No doubt he tried to give his son every single happiness that he never got. Evelina felt pity on Jordan.

Evelina smiled but a few drops of tears fall from her eyes.

She walked through the court. Federico and Andreas is discussing with other court members. May be Jordan was worried about her. That's why he didn't attend the court . But this two are expert in everything. Andreas can handle the Regency very well. And both of their loyalty is in another level..... undoubtedly they're loyal to the Royal family.

Evelina walked faster and finally reached Jordan's chamber. She stepped inside.

"Evelina....why you came here. Just you could just call me instead....I would come to visit you, sweetie." Jordan held Evelina and take her towards the couch.

"No it's okay ...I just wanna have a little walk."

"You're still weak...my wife."he took her in his lap.

Evelina sat on his thighs silently. Then she took out the wedding ring from her finger.

"What are you doing?" Jordan wonder.

Evelina said nothing.She looked at the ring closely.

"Can you give me a glass of water." Evelina smiled gently.

"Why not....take it."Jordan stood up and kept a glass full of water on table.

Evelina took it and picked out the diamond from the ring.

"What are you doing actually?" Jordan standing beside her.

Evelina bring out a powder type mixer from the ring that was hidden behind the diamond.

Then she poured it in the glass and mix it well.

"Do you know what is this?" Evelina looked upper at jordan.

"Noh"

"It's a secret of our Royal family. Every Royal bride carry this wedding ring putting poison in it. It's a tradition. We can use it in danger. Who knew I'll be used in this way." Evelina smiled.

"Eve...Are you going to kill yourself!!.." Jordan said.

"I want your death. Drink this glass of poison. it's not for me. " Evelina said in a darker voice.

"Have you gone mad..."Jordan shocked after hearing this.

" Drink it if you love me.... Because I don't want to see you alive anymore....."Evelina said in a pale voice.

"Did the ex Regent tell you everything!!"Jordan's eyes filled with tears.

"It doesn't matter anymore...."Evelina said in her lifeless voice.

"I'm sorry Eve..... Please forgive me...I don't want to die....I want to live with you in this beautiful world."Jordan started shobbing and requesting.

"You've lost that right...." Evelina behaved indifferent holding the glass in her hand.

"The Emperor father was about to kill me.... That's why I did that...He would never let me meet with you again and I would die one day staying captured like that.....He would never let me meet you and kill me slowly..."

"I think I started hating you. I'll no longer be able to love you. So I want to do something terrible to you. So that I can regret....And that regretful feeling will prevent me from hating you and preserve my love. So drink this and die...." Evelina gave a graceful smile.

"Then die with me...I don't want to be separated from you.... Please come with me...."Jordan stated his last wish.

"Why would I die.... I'll live.... I'll grow old alone.... I'll enjoy this worldly life without you. I'll remember you in my bitter-sweet memories...in my dark and bright memories...I won't die....." Evelina refused his proposal.

Jordan at first was astonished but now he's silent. He understood all the struggle has ended now.

He's breathing first. It's difficult to face his own death when he finally wanted to live....

Jordan didn't think anything furthur. He picked the glass and close his eyes. Then drank it all.

"You don't need to die with me. I've drank it fully." Jordan smiled.

Evelina stood up and touched Jordan face. ..

",...". Evelina kissed on a corner of Jordan's face.

"Evelina....why...."Jordan growled. Tears falling down from his big and beautiful eyes.

"We're not pure anymore. Because of us many people died. We should have the punishment of our sin." Evelina leaned her head on Jordan forehead.

"But what's your punishment.... It's only me who is facing the death...."

"It's a pity that you'll never know..."Evelina wispered

"Eve...We still have times....Please call Andreas. He'll save me . Then we can leave everything and live among the common people. I don't want to die. I want to live with you.I really love you." Jordan cried.

"....Shh... it'll hurt if you talk more ...." Evelina smiled with her tears.

" Eve....I still haven't seen the world outside the Palace... I was always there.... I can't die like this"

"The Palace is big enough for you complete all your living desires..."Evelina again kissed on his forehead.

"Ahhhw....I can't stand like this. My knees are weaken. My inner body is burning....can I sit here...." Jordan touched his chest while crying.

Evelina held him and sit on the floor. Jordan is leaning on her lap.

"Do you know....That day in the Royal army camp...That was the first time I've stepped outside the Palace....But I couldn't notice the surrounding because you suddenly appeared and fainted because of me. I was so focused on you and worried about your miscarriage that I didn't cared about the fact of being outside.." Jordan kept talking in a slow breaking voice.

Evelina kept patting on his head.

"But it's okay....From now on , You won't be able to hate me..... You'll keep loving me like I've loved... Don't you?...." Jordan asked

Evelina silently nodded.

"That's a relief." Jordan closed his eyes for once.

Evelina didn't have any strength to talk. She never thought it'll hurt this much. She never thought she would love Jordan that much....More than everyone. Now his pain is untolerable for Eve. She would rather die first.

"You know what...." Jordan said..

"Hmm..." Evelina continuously crying.

"I was always envious of Samuel . Because even after his death you cried for him. I saw the extreme pain in your eyes for him that day. But now I'm happy that you're feeling more pain because I'm dying....May be you love me more than him.

I always wanted that you would care for me like him.... you'll cry not for the fear of loosing him but me. Now I can see the fear of loosing me in you eyes.And you know what I'm satisfied." Jordan smiled.

Suddenly his mouth started bleeding.

"Don't talk.... please don't talk..." Evelina said while crying.

"It's better to die in your arms. I LOVE YOU A LOT. May be I'll meet you again in the heaven....wait ...Am I going to heaven...will the almighty accept me After doing all these sins..?"

"God will accept you may be. You've got all your punishment in this lifetime." Evelina smiled.

"The I'll wait for you there...Ahhhw....I can't tolerate.... it's aching a lot. Please do something.." Jordan growled.

"Please bear a little more. Every pain will gone, my little Prince. Every wounds will heal. No more sufferings....And don't worry about the Dynasty. Daniel will grow up and become a good Emperor one day...." Evelina looked at Jordan.

He's not talking anymore . He's not breathing. A while ago Blood was flowing from his mouth and now stopped flowing.

Evelina touch his hair. He body turning cold slowly. A bluish aura spreading throughout his skin.

It seems like he's sleeping.

She remembered Jordan's sleeping face when he was a little boy....Now he's looking the same. AN INNOCENT SLEEPING FACE.

Why her heart is aching so much. She couldn't breathing properly. Sword stabbing in her chest again and again.

She shouted and growled in her mind.

Evelina kept holding Jordan in her embrace with an extreme agony that kept burning her soul .

After a while...

Evelina swiped her tears and kissed on Jordan's blooded lips.

"I'm sorry...I LOVE YOU TOO." Evelina stood up .

Her whole world destroyed already. She walked towards the door but stop and turned behind.

She looked at Jordan for the last time.she doesn't want to leave him. She wished if she could stayed here beside him forever... Her heart is bleeding continuously. Now she can go wherever she wants.... without any hesitation... without anyone failing back...

Evelina took a deep breath and left the chamber.

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Evelina is walking through the Court . Andreas and Federico standing there.

Evelina went there.

"Hay Evelina...you should take some rest. you're still weak.....wait...why is your eyes red? HAVE YOU CRIED AGAIN?" Andreas asked.

"It's okh...you have Daniel and you can have another baby,my Empress ." Federico consoled her.

Evelina didn't answer.

"Listen Andreas....destroy the Harem and send all the concubines and consorts back to their states except Martha." Evelina said.

"Why suddenly....." Andreas asked.

"Promise me you'll do that....and also promise that you'll take care of my little Daniel..." Evelina said expressionlessly.

"Are you going somewhere?..."

"Are you promising or not ?"Evelina ignored his asking.

"Okh okh.... I promise my Empress." Andreas smiled.

"Jordan is calling you both....go and check why he's calling?" Evelina said.

"Okh...see you later....go back to your chamber and take some rest." Andreas and Federico left for Jordan's chamber.

Evelina walk towards the garden , have a glance over Daniel for once.

She took a black cloth and wrapped herself to hide her face while leaving the Palace.

She left the palace silently with letting anyone notice her.

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Andreas and Federico stepped in Jordan's chamber....there was no one.

Federico looked on the floor and shocked.....

"Andreas...." Federico screamed..

Andreas saw Jordan laying and he also shouted loudly.

He rushed there and picked Jordan in his lap. He tried to wake him up....but Jordan didn't respond.

Federico checked his breathings and pulse....

"He's no more." Federico brusted into tears.

"Noooo. ..." Andreas growled embracing Jordan in his chest...

"Call the gaurds and find Evelina....She did it... I'll kill her myself.....Aaaaasaa" Andreas kept shobbing and grieving holding Jordan's lifeless body.

He felt like he lost his own son or someone more closer than that..... His sorrow linked with eternity.

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Evelina is in the seaport of the capital. Soon a big ship aground on the bank of the ocean with a thousand of other ships and boats .

Everyone shouted with joy...the whole market is celebrating because the battalion has brought the news of victory. Their cavalry win the wars and every kingdoms surrendered to them. Now the whole world is under their rule. Everyone praising the young Emperor. He just ascended to the throne a few months ago and excellently showed his capacity of ruling....

Generals are coming down from the ships. Soon they'll be heading for the Palace with this good news.

Evelina ignored them ...Now everything is valueless to her. She doesn't care about it anymore.....She wondered how this good news that bad news will encounter with each other. How Andreas will handle everything while struggling with his own grieves.

Evelina hired a small-broken ship. But she have no money left with her .....the owner of the ship didn't recognize her. So he demanded some money from her.

Though the ship is too much small but it still have some expenses.

Evelina was covered with a black clothes sheet. She put off the clothes and took out all the jewelleries she was wearing.

Then she saw the sword from Samuel hanging in her waist. She also took it out and gave all the things to the owner of the ship.

After getting an expensive sword, the owner become delighted.

Evelina got into the ship alone. And started sailing the ship for the middle of the see. Her tears kept flying with the air as the ship speeded up.

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It almost dawn. Evelina stood up and watch outside.... every where is only water and water. She reached in the middle.

Evelina took a deep breath and stopped the ship. Her tears already dried on her cheeks.

"I couldn't say you that I also love you...Can you hear me now,my Prince..."Evelina shouted loudly into the air.....

Her anguished voice spread in the ocean and vibrated in the sky .

Evelina look at the ocean water. The water is deep black. Big sharks are swimming around the ship ....

Evelina smiled again.

Then she break the middle wood of the ship. The ship is sinking slowly within the ocean water. The sharks are getting closer....The deep black water engulfing the ship a bit by bit.

Evelina can't wait anymore. She's leaving this bitter world and going for a better place. There won't be any pain or sufferings.

Will she being able to meet with Jordan....Who knows... Maybe not...or maybe.....

Evelina close her eyes with a new hope that brings no hope.

The light blue sky blended with the deep blue ocean.

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THE END

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(Completed)