Book 4: Part 12: Trials & Tribulations- Chapter 155: Tit For Tat (Munshin-E Daehan Gasaeum)

"You are so young, so ripe and so hot for me. You are so beautiful, so young and still so tight. You…are the perfect candidate to be my wife. Because only you can bear my children. Only you…" I couldn't get what happened that night out of my head, even when I was back in school. A lot of things happened that night actually, that we couldn't forget. My brother didn't let me accompany him the night that he confronted Hui-Jae alone, but we all heard what had happened. There was a lot of screaming and shouting and pleading on her behalf that I could hear even when I was with Seon-Ho who…truly had been holding back, just like he said. I wasn't digested with him and I wasn't angry with him, but I had to draw the line and make myself clear that I wasted our intimacies to stop until we were married. He really wasn't happy about it and I really had to hold my ground on this, but he hadn't spoken to me since then and that was a week ago. My brother refused to talk about the situation, the only thing that I did know was that she had gotten so enraged that she took my brother's sword and she almost ran Moon-Bok though with it when he tried to stop it and it was Hwa-Wol who almost lost her life fighting her off of him. Then she ran away and it was Seon-Ho who had t chase her since Hwi was just so mentally exhausted by even the mention of her name. But he finally seemed to have gotten over his depression and we managed to spend as much time as we could together before he and Moon-Bok was called to another mission. Ae-Cha was also healing as well with Hwa-Wol's help who agreed to stay with us until the men returned. I was honestly pleasantly surprised by how well she got along with Seon-Ho as he could appear rather cold to strangers, but I could only be thankful enough for her patience with him.

"Yeon? What are you thinking about? You haven't even started on our new books yet?" "Forgive me Young Master, but I just seem to be a little preoccupied with…." "Ae-Cha? I mean, it is a shame with what happened with her, but don't you feel it is a lot quieter without her around?" "She did say that she will try to make an appearance today if she can, she has been stuck inside for so long and…" "Seo Yeon?" "Yes?" "You have received a special invitation for the 6th prince's banquet that shall take place in the capital in a week's time. Please accept this formally?" I didn't think that I was being paranoid at all when I suddenly felt that I had more than one pair of eyes on me. I had been greeted by palace guards on horses and now all of the village was staring at me in complete awe when I received an official invitation. "Wow, so it looks like we shall both be attending this banquet. Should we…to together?" "Yes I suppose so….what is it? What are you looking at?" "Do you know that man over there on the left who keeps staring at you?" I didn't even really have to look at whom he was talking about whilst I accompanied the Young Master on a walk on u break from school just as I finally handed in my embroiders to the man who would sell them on my behalf.

"Yeon? Are you alright?" "What is the expression on the man's face?" "I do not think that I have ever seen someone so angry before, his eyes are positively on fire. Do you know him?" "He is my brother's best friend and my official guardian for as long as I remained…unmarried." "Yeon, is your life in danger?"

Just how on earth was I supposed to answer that? The man that I always have loved finally shared my feelings, but he had buried it with various layers of his schemes and plans. I had been his man for a long time and it was only a week ago that he practically admitted to having me at all so he could basically impregnate me for his purpose. He knew that I was in no position of marriage and bearing children at all, not with my condition. This was the one thing that I had truly wanted for myself for a very long time and here he was, dangling it above my head as if I was some pawn of his to fight for his favour. He was taking things too far now, but what scared me was the fact that he didn't seem to recognise this wrong at all. And that wasn't the only thing; Seon-Ho tended to get a little…dark and intense when he got carried away when he was…denied anything. It was a beastly side of his that came out with his nobility entitlement that I simply did not have time to indulge, not now.

"Let us meet Ae-Cha at the greenery and fly some kites whilst we wait for her, what do you say?" "Very well, my friend will also join us if you do not mind." "Friend?" "Ae-Cha's ex-lover." "But Young Master…" "Yeon, I can assure you that he isn't as bad as your friend told you that he is. He is rather curious about you as he works with your brother and he asked me to induce you to him just this once." It was only now that I realised that everyone around me, no matter what their motives were, all wanted me to keep my distance from Ae-Cha. This gave me sense enough to just agree with them for now and see where this went, for I already had enough on my plate to deal with.

I followed him to the greenery, full aware that Seon-Ho was watching me with each step that I took. I couldn't take much of this torture myself anymore; I couldn't eat or sleep without him and I felt like I couldn't breathe whilst I was s far away from him and yet so close at the same time. I wanted him to hold me even when I was angry at him, I wanted him to keep me company always and I wanted him in my sight just as much as he wanted me in his, even if we may have different motives for it. And I was frightened for it.

Due to my unusual condition, I was given much more freedom that other women were, which actually worked well for my plans. But in this…love or other relationship that I had with Seon-Ho, I quite quickly found myself getting lost in him and his so-called plans that seem to involve us getting married. But I was also having trouble distinguishing between what was real and what was fake and I couldn't have that, not with him. He was the only man that I would ever love and if he was…incapable of showing me some tenderness or fairness, then I would give myself the same freedom that I had always grown up with, Maybe I couldn't get away from him, but I would devote some time to myself to carry on with my plans, hopefully until the day that I was wed…

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I had hurt her, but I had also piqued her strong sense of curiosity. I resented her, but I couldn't eat, breathe or sleep without her. My hands were made to touch and caress her, my mouth was made to be on top of hers whilst my mind shamelessly schemed to exploit her talents and abilities for my use until they day she gave me children. That would be the day that I could stop using her in the only way that I knew how and we could…just maybe have a happy…loving and nurturing marriage with an army of children given to my by her surrounding my feet. I knew what Yeon craved and I couldn't give it to her before my plans were carried out, otherwise I would loose myself in her too soon and achieve nothing at all. I could only be tender and maybe even as soft with her as I could be only when she gave me my heirs. This love thing or whatever it was that continued to elude me would have to wait until our marriage but until then, Yeon was just going to have to put up with my intensity, my boldness and my urgency. She was frighteningly clever and she should at least understand that my…demands would quickly be over as soon as she gave into them. And then we could all be…happy…whatever that meant

But there she was, just a few feet away and adorned in the finest silk and long lasting perfume surrounded herself with dogs that were hovering over her like desperate little boys, who were younger than me at that. But that is exactly what they were, just boys, whilst Yeon had me who was rather skilled in my…talents.

She knew what she was doing when she kept looking over at me without a hint of any reaction at all. She was teasing me and she knew it; she was deliberately trying to make me jealous and it wasn't woking, not in the slightest. I wasn't someone who was easily disturbed with petty feelings like this. It wasn't jealousy that I was feeling but rather…anger that she was expose herself like this to anyone by myself. I had everything that she could ever dream of and more, so what was the point in conversing with any man other than myself? What was the point in keeping anyone else company but myself? Why even show her face to anyone in public besides myself? Yeon was someone who was both innocent and not, she can be sweet and salty, submissive and dominant at the same time. I know that she was going along with my plans until she found a flaw that interceded with her own. She was going to test me, drive me crazy and make me chase her around until she made my life difficult without her. Seo Yeon, how bold and yet predictable you are, but she should really know better than to test me, and I will make sure that she pays for this along with everything else that she is putting me through when she could just as easily surrender and be happy….as she can be, anyways. But first, I was going to need some security just in case one of us took this too far and eventually hurt one another. Getting her pregnant prematurely wasn't the only thing that I could do to bind us together for the rest of our lives, whether she liked it or not. So let the games begin.