Chapter 6

July 11 (Midnight)

Gratel told me something today.

Something that has me sacred, woke up

We are fourteen.

In just a decade, we could be turning into a new someone.

Some of us would get married, some of us would get job, some would now away from home, some would take a right step ,some would take wrong.

"Isn't it crazy! this few years can decide what we are going to be in the future."

He was night. We were no longer Children.

The weekend was over.

I could not tell Gratel what happened.

But I could not stop shivering.

He knew that something had me upset, something had me scared.

Gratel, that's why, did the best thing he could do to cheer me up.

That was to find a suitable poison.

"Arsenic ,it's popular in murder," he explained, "What's better, gives symptoms of Cholera!"

"Where did you find about this?? I tried to immerse myself in the subject," Will it work?"

"Certain amount of dose is lethal."

"How can I got my hand on that?"

"That's easy, "Gratel smiled at me, "You need to be sick to get that."

Gratel is somewhat stupid.

"This is silly! What if I die!,"I banged on his window pane.

"You need to take the risk, if you show symptoms of cholera, then doctor might prescribe your Arsenic, it is pretty popular!"

"But then what if I die in Cholera? "

Gratel was unreasonable. What if the proper medicine is something else ??!!

I guessed that I was a little sensitive today after watching Riet being sick .

"Wll... I am sure your family will help. they will not just let you die."

"What if they do!," I shouted at him. "The family- sometimes they don't help at all !"

"Are you okay?! ,"Gratel spreaded a hand out of the window, he seemed concerned, "What really happened?"

I bursted into tears.

I was frustrated.

About how weak & pathetic I was.

Maybe if I was like Isabel ,I would have been able to put an end to this marriage sooner.

If I was stronger. maybe I could have saved Riet.

But I am this stupid child who can not save anybody.

At this rate, everyone is going to die .

And I am a coward who is going lose every thing.

"Look, whatever you are going through, now" Gratel brushed my hair to one side, "You need to brace yourself. You need to be brave, you need to take the blow when it's needed."

Gratel is right.

I can not back down like this. Being weak, being a child - everything is excuse.

If I want to win -I need to be brave.

Since I am up against the monsters.

The Darwins are the monsters.

I might be scared but I can not

back down now.

And it might not end with just Jonathan.

I need to kill another one (Well, aside from Fred, Fred is always top on my killing list).

The next kill will be Raphael Darwin.

Raphael who is so terrible.

Raphael w who is cold like a snake that is swallowing frog.

Who has ho sense of value of others.

Even remembering his name makes me nauseous.

I can never forgive him.

That monster - he needs to be burned in fire.

For the first time today. I had wondered if I was really awake or just in a very bad hightmare.

Not just because Riet was throwing up blood, I saw Raphael with his hand pressed over his mouth that was almost giving out a laugh. His eyes glowed like he was excited like a child.

He is like a terrible ghost from my nightmare and then he came to take Riet away .

I did not want to give her up to the monster.

" What are you doing?,"I heard a cold voice behind me, it was Lady Darwin ," Raphael is a docter, given her to Raphael so he can take care of it!"

Astonished, | had turned to face the Great Lady of Darwin .

Did she not notice the smile on

her son's face ?

How could she not notice that?

Another prove I had today.

And then I realised.

She knew .

She knew everything.

She knew what terrible monsters she have grown in her cradles - the kind of creatures who can smile so gleefully watching his wife throwing up blood .

Another proof I have found today.

That the Darwin household has been actually killing their brides off.

Jonathan had four wives before. They annaced Isabel's engagement just two days after the last wife's funeral.

Aunt the still thinks that everything is just a bad rumour.

Isabel is health and other wives had been chronically diseased all along.

But it all comes down when you witness the real monstrous attitude of the sons.

Why does nobody get it?

I can't just let my sister die.

I have yet to know Raphael's killing count. Considering his behavious towards Riet, he was no better than his brother.

Both of the brothers had been killing for who knew how long.

"Can you find me information about the second son?," I had asked Gratel.

"You mean Darwin Raphael?".

I noded.

"I heard that he was eighteen, doing higher studies as medical practitioner," Gratel shrugged,

"He does not come up on newspaper as much as his brother does."

"Do me this favour.,"I holded his hand that was out of the window, "Since I might have to take both of them out!"

July 15. Afternoon:

Dear diary, I regret not running away from home when I had the chance. For the past few days, Lady Darwin had tormented me so much that even in the dreams, I can hear her saying "No, Miss Robin, you are not supposed to sit like a bat."

But for the better news, I am done my monthly! But Isabel has said that it will come back at next month. I don't trust that.

I believe that monthly is done with me for -forever:

So I had been practicing how to not sit like a bat.

But how does the bats sit anyway?.

I feel like my torso will be bend in a permanent position at this rate .

Yesterday, she had even come inside my rooms while I was sleeping and said to me ,"No, Miss Robin, you are not supposed to snore like a pig when you sleep ."

Why is this legal?

I have tried to flee to the nearest Guard post to ask for help.

Since this woman needs to be put in jail.

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So when I tried to flee the scene from my window at three O' clock in the morning, I had found her sitting on a chair just under my window, sipping tea with my aunt.

"Miss Robin, it's not lady - like to use the window as exit ,"she has told me," If you need to go somewhere, please use the stairs .Everyone down here can see your underwear. "

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS HAG?

I feel like she is everywhere watching my every step. And it has been the fifth time when she had asked me to go to her house with her - about how lively her house would be if a free-spirited girl like me can accompany her all the time .

Honestly , she is more of a psychopath than her criminal sons.

Today morning ,when the witch had disappeared for a minute had finally asked my unhelpful family for help, "Is she in love with me? Why is she so obssessed with if I sit like a bat or not?," I had pleaded Isabel," "Sissy, that lady has pedophilia, I am telling you. That hag is in love with me, stop her , please .She even asked me if I wanted to go home with her."

For two long seconds Isabel had scowled at me and then shouted at aunt," Aunt! Anne has finally lost it !we might have to send her to the asylum with the mayor's son ."

Surely, the old creepy fart had appeared after sometimes again , making me flinch away ,"Now that I think about it Miss Anne, we must do something about your nails, I have seen goat with better maintainence about nails than you."

If we collect the animal everyimme she mentious them comparing with me, we would have the will biggest farmer of the town.

" How about you give it a rest for today, mother," Isabel had come to my rescue," You must be tired arranging the reception. We must prepare to depart if we do not want to be late or that is what I want to suggest to you."

I can not believe that the old hag is taking trip from capital to here everyday just to harrass me.

They say that the love is strong. But it does not need to be THAT strong.

The hag seemed displeased about it, "You are right, dear Isabel, but next time we also need to measure her bosom."

No way in hell , I would go down without a fight !