Ch - 3 The Stars Tonight
This 3.6 second feelings make myself disable. Uff!
Everyone had to leave that's why I one further and outside of classroom, everyone was their way. My heart wants to stay here also my mind but my feet aren't ready for that. Perhaps it wants to stay here with dull loneliness. I make myself steady. Cause it's not the right time to stay here. I didnt talk to him today & for this my brain was super disturbed. After I return home, my mom says to me in angry tone.
:Ame, why you didn't have breakfast today and you also skip your break. Did you?
I answered my mom.
:No mom. I didn't. I just wanna take some rest.
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After make myself fresh, I gone to my window side. This window side, is just only thing that make myself complete. My feelings, my happiness, sadness, loneliness: everything this window knows me very well. I started to think about my whole day. It's going in own track. But yeah, I enjoyed it. I don't know how to make things according to my hope. Hence, I just can let it go. I completed my homework and study, then complete dinner with my dearest mom Mary. In this little cute house, I go to my room and turn off the lights. Today the sky is looking very flawless. The stars, Venus planet and finally the incomplete moon.
I lay down on my bed and started to watching them. Isn't pretty to have a window from which you can watch the Sky's lovers. It's dream for me, what Jesus completed. Jesus is best, literally!
Just hope he will make Rowoon just mi...min.... mine...ah why am I blushing? He isn't in front of me. Ah! I am going to die one day for this much shyness. Oh Jesus, save me from this ugly shy girl! I remembered, I didn't play my radio today. Oh! I immediately turn on the button and suddenly the song played what sang by Arctic Monkeys.
I wanna be your vacuum cleaner
Breathing in your dust
I wanna be your Ford Cortina
I will never rust
If you like your coffee hot
Let me be your coffee pot
You call the shots, babe
I just wanna be yours
Secrets I have held in my heart
Are harder to hide than I thought
Maybe I just wanna be yours
I wanna be yours, I wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours
Wanna be yours.....
Seriously, I just wanna be his.I just wanna be yours!! Hey Jesus just please make him mine. Please!
Again, I arrive late for my school's main schedule to the following morning. As obviously, my mother Mary gave me an enormous talk for being late each day. I likewise trusted that, on the off chance that I will proceed with this daily schedule, my headteacher won't require a second prior to giving me TC.
I was concerned not about my school, rather I was stressed over Rowoon!
How might I falsifier him? My most memorable love all things considered. Not only do I want to attend every class today, but I also want to see him every time, so I don't want to miss a single one. What is love that without watching and feel everything he might do. Once more, I miss my morning meal and unexpectedly I miss my morning meal only for a guy, a guy! How absurd? Most likely, it's the absolute first time that I miss my breakfast for somebody that as well, the explanation is a guy who make myself frantic about him. After getting myself ready, I ran towards the main door, and my mother Mary began to scold me, or better yet, say the most common annoying things.
: Ame, you again right? Gracious Jesus Christ, without giving me stress you would live na? Assuming you miss your morning meal ordinary you will get sick.
Yet, who going to listen her? With a brilliant and wide grin I leave my mother, my dear bed and my memory. Truly, yesterday night I didn't rest like unto 3 AM and the explanation obviously Rowoon. Entire night: my brain, my eyes, my heart and my lips are simply lost into him. My Creator "Ozge Eunoia" consistently says that, individuals can't sleep when they feel ecstasy in any event, when they are miserable that likewise they can't even sleep that time also. Without a doubt, I generally disregard her considerations likewise yet today I understood that, she is right that is the reason, yesterday my eyes were worn out to open up entire night.
In the wake of coming to ground floor my eyes goes to Rosie. Ufff, she is here again to save me. She is awesome. I laughed taking a gander at her from a long way off and wave my little hand. She gives me a stellar look.
What presently? I run towards her. She is super irate as each time she utilized to. I climbed on her bicycle. She shrugged my hand and said whereas going towards our school.
:So princess Diana, how are you?
She insulted me I knew it. So I wanna make fun of her thats why whereas for expanding her irate, I utilized to say as keeping my grin still.
:Yes, my expensive Rosie and much obliged for calling me princess.
Rosie got chafed by my sentence. She breaks her bicycle and says whereas looking at me in a incensed tone.
:Don't say advance, you as of now make us late so fair closed your mouth.
I make my confront charming cause I know Rosie is getting irate on the off chance that I won't halt my jokes right presently she won't think once some time before kick me. I gotten her skirt and says in a charming tone.
:Don't get irate if you don't mind. I fair... just let's go.
Rosie took a profound breathe. At that point what, she begins chasten me once more. I fair overlook her cause I was drawn into Rowoon's dream. He is got to be my medicine presently. Street of Paris, victoria in Canada donate me Goosebumps after considering approximately himself. I think the foremost unadulterated and excellent cherish is to begin with adolescent cherish. Maybe I wasn't a gigantic fan of being cherish or having crush. My life was colourless some time recently but after Rowoon it's ended up excellent. Indeed I begin discover him in everything, in case that'd fair a music or indeed on the off chance that fair a occurrence.
I continuously attempt to discover himself in everything. Suddenly, in my entire world is have a place to him. His presence make myself powerless each a short time later seconds. I wasn't mindful of any terrible thing right now, maybe that's why I am still dreaming about something that's not indeed mine.
Fortunately, we come to school at the proper time when everybody is prepared to go to their classroom's. I and Rosie are planning to the swarmed put and blend ourselves with them. As a last result, on one couldn't find us. Rosie gives me a virtuoso grin but I was misplaced to discover out HIM! My he.
After wrapped up gathering, all students are attending to their classes. A few are talked in overhangs and some are chuckling. Whereas I rolled my eyes, cause moreover, I didn't discover Rowoon. I whispered to myself,
"Where is he? Didn't he come? Ahaha! It can't happened."
All of a sudden, I realized somebody snatch my hand from behind. I froze and turn back, but after observing that individual I take a long profound breathe. There, Rosie was standing. I took my hand off from her and asked her,
:Will you let me go after killing myself?
I touched my heart with a breath of relief. When Rosie started looking at me strangely, God knows where she was looking at me or what she was trying to figure out. Rosie rolled her eyes and said she couldn't believe it.
: Ame, tell me, why do you look so scared. Also, I noticed that since morning until now you are lost and thinking about something or just thinking about something. How are things going for you? What happened to you?
My nerves started to process it. Because I don't want to talk to Rosie about it right now, otherwise the situation isn't perfect and she won't listen to me in any way. So I decided to lie.
: What. What's going to happen to me, Rosie. I'm completely fine, but don't think too much.
:Beyond any doubt na?
Her looks slaughter me interior cause she is exceptionally intelligent and can capture me anytime. But I keep up my acting. I was anxious to tell her, indeed I do not know why. All of a sudden, Rosie and I listen everyone's shout. I and Rosie looked around us. But everyone's look is on front. I inquired to Rosie,
: What's going on? Is any celebrity come here?
Rosie denied to me.
:Who knows?
Our look was forward. After holding up for in some cases, my eyes goes towards what I was attempting to discover from morning.
I whispered.
"Rowoon!"
Yes, he is here after at long last. My heart skip its beats. As I capture locate of him, an electric current appears to surge through my veins, setting my heart into a fast, nearly syncopated beat. Time quickly loses its grasp as my faculties increase, capturing each detail of his nearness.
The discuss feels charged with expectation, and a kaleidoscope of feelings moves inside myself — from the butterflies in my stomach, shuddering with apprehensive vitality, to the warmth spreading through my cheeks. His simple nearness appears to cast a brilliant shine, turning conventional minutes into a cinematic exhibition. It's as in the event that the universe plans to intensify each subtlety of my sentiments, making a ensemble of emotions that plays within the foundation of this captivating experience. Abruptly, everything appears to be like a moderate movement motion picture. Where everything misplaced, everybody vanished and I and he are as it were stand. In spite of the fact that, everything is still in their places but still I can feel it.
Where everyone's look is on him as it were but his look on ME!
Wtf? Fair joking fella, why will he see at me? Who am I like in his relationship? I was fair basically said it. Really his look in front as a 180 cm boy, he is sufficient tall which is why his look wasn't indeed erroneously on me. Since, the reason is my brief tallness and little figure. I do not wanna share my stature here cause I am humiliated around it but still,,,, my tallness really 152 cm!
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
Where he may be a 6 feet boy and where I am 152 cm. What the hell? And indeed he could be a pale skin's boy but I am brown. Truly, we didn't coordinate at all. We didn't culminate, ain't we? But who is culminate on soil bro? And brown thing is excellent like eyes, coffee, dress or extras. Rowoon disregarded everybody as in case we all are vanished. But I like it and at the same time I am pitiful cause he isn't take note me. I am confounded with my sentiments at whatever point I am in front of him. Now and then I feel exceptionally moo, now and then upbeat, now and then excited.
One thing that's moreover told by "Ozge Eunoia" is,
"A few individuals won't get your words. Whereas a few won't require words to get you."
I think we have that kind of relationship. Whereas we can't indeed see each other but still you read my love story. Isn't wonderful? You all are charming!
After Rowoon entered into the classroom. All young girl's are begin running whereas who will sit close to him. At long last I feel free. Cause I hold my breathe for so long. I looked at Rosie who is looking at the entryway where at some point some time recently Rowoon gone. I inquired her,
:What?
Rosie looked at me like I am inept. She rehashes same thing.
:What?
I rehashed once more moreover.
:What?
:What? Let's go.
After entered into the classroom, I looked all around. Shockingly, Rowoon is sat in front seats. Additionally all girl's are sat around his situate. Rosie and I sat centre seats. In spite of the fact that, our room wasn't that huge but it is small. I am not great at math so I can't tell you the square, feet anything you need. Rosie inquired to me after sit there calmly.
:Hello? What you think, Ame? How is his genuine personality?
His'? Who is this his? Is Rowoon? But why all of a sudden Rosie inquired me. I once more get a tremendous uncomfort when I recalled that she incorporates a huge crush on Kdrama boys at that point tragically, she encompasses a feeling almost Rowoon but how can I inquire her this? I am beyond any doubt that, she will feel something. Cause Rowoon's identity is completely coordinated with Kdrama Lead's. I do not know what to say or what to think. All of a sudden I feel like I couldn't even think in my intellect gently. I am ignorant of that reason. Directly, Rosie squeezed me and I return to my genuine life. I inquired clumsily but direct.
:What you wanna say, Rosie? Who's personality you're talking approximately?
Rosie did a stop some time and see at my face. After allow a moan she says to me.
:Rowoon.
I looked at front where Rowoon was situated as he may be a shrewdly understudy. His front was inaccessible for me but I can see his back. He was active to perusing a book. Rosie's look was moreover on him. Close to Rowoon's situate was completely purge. Why anybody sat there I do not know. I do not have that much mettle that I will ty to sat adjacent to him. I answered to Rosie,
:I do not know how is his genuine personality. Cause I didn't know him, even today I do not know. I have zero information approximately him... Maybe.....
I stop. Rosie interests looked at me that time. Her look was sufficient to say that she needs my reply. So I controlled my feelings. But abruptly I taken note that Tia go towards Rowoon's situate and inquired him something. Shockingly, she sat adjacent to him!
Ahhhh! ( Disillusioned moan )