Ch - 4 Notebook
Rosie's look was on me thats why she doesn't see that. But after observing Rowoon and Tia together, my heart impact like a boom. But along side that why am I feeling that they are culminate for each other?
I still replied to Rosie.
:Maybe, he is.... he is perfect lead as Kdrama boy!
Do not know why I say this line to Rosie. I didn't implied to say it but I did. Some of the time, not in some cases after assembly with Rowoon : I begun doing everything inverse what I arranged to do. It's make myself ungainly and abnormal. After completing my line, Rosie claim.
:You think as well? You did think as well, Amehhh! You're astonishing.
Rosie embraced me. She was upbeat after tuning in my point of see for Rowoon but that's the primary time ever, I WASN'T for her. Whereas embracing me Rosie expressed.
:At that point, he will best for you!
Once more,,,, ahhhhh! I thought negative? Meaning , Rosie was inquired me cause she needs that Rowoon and I ended up two bodies but one soul. She needs that we remain with each other. Abruptly my entirety world begin work once more. My best companion is best. Presently I realized that I ought to say her approximately Rowoon and my sentiments. But I indeed can responded, some time recently that our educator come into our class. That's our class teacher Miss. Anna. She is our history instructor additionally exceptionally understanding lady. Her daughter is Tia. We all welcomed ma'am, she does as well. After situated to our seats. Miss. Anna grins cheerfully and says to us.
:I trust you're all happy. Now I have a awesome news almost you all. Which is our winter tour is organized by primary instructors for the exceptionally to begin with time. Implies, we are planning to a winter excursion or visit for three days. Implies, December 7th to 9th. And you all ought to go. It's essential. You all said to us that we ought to go for a visit and this is often the ultimate time. We are getting to Royal Mc Museum. And more places but we are going astonish you afterward. So are you left almost it or something you need to tell us. Everybody is exceptionally energized approximately that visit. Everybody talks with Miss. Anna more for knowing around the visit. Rosie's smiles is sufficient to create myself cheerful. I and Rosie were super energized cause after 2 year's we'll go for a visit. At the same time, course moreover begun in it's claim way. There are no more conversation almost the visit. Particularly everybody was active to talk about around it. But I was arranging something uncommon. Cause it'll be to begin with time I will go for a visit with Rowoon.
Perhaps, he wasn't indeed know that I exist right presently but still I am upbeat being a young lady who is fallen for a culminate fellow. I looked at Rowoon, who was as regular enthusiastic less. He wasn't appear any fervour towards it, perhaps he doesn't like this kind of visit. I taken note Tia. Her look and her eyes were telling that she likes Rowoon. Cause where Rowoon's eyes were on Miss. Anna, her eyes were on him. After falling in cherish, at slightest I can recognized after seeing somebody looked at somebody else that she is frantically fallen for him. At right presently, the circumstance was abnormal cause indeed whom she was seeing that's my first love too.
He is everyone's smash!
Therefore, we'll progressing to tour after a few days. That's why nowadays we completed 4 classes without any break. Conjointly Rowoon got each and everyone's consideration this entirety period. Because he was able to reply each address what teacher's inquired. Clearly, each school topper is angry for him. The reason is, he stole entirety lamplight and consideration. But moreover shockingly, we all endure from a colossal insuperable cause we are typical students. When teacher's were offended us, I feel like somebody was slapped us imperceptibly. It was going like crazy! It was break time and as of now 1 PM.
Rosie and I are going for a walk because we don't want to eat today. Even I haven't finished my breakfast yet. But I still don't want to eat. Rosie and I sat on a bench in the playground, some boys were playing basketball and others were chatting while Rosie and I were busy looking around. I randomly asked Rosie.
: Rosie, who is your ideal type?
:I Umm.....
Rosie sometimes thinks and then answers:
:I think a guy will admire me, compliment my beauty, always pay attention to me, be handsome, tall, have a classy attitude. He must also be rich and above all he will give me everything I want.
I was speechless because Rosie never said that her lover would love her unconditionally. So I asked her with a tone of disbelief.
: Rose, don't you need love?
Rosie, without hesitation, give me a simple answer.
:True love doesn't exist and no one will love you forever. At the end of the day, everyone will leave.
I'm surprised because who always says kdrama boy – kdrama boy, suddenly says that true love doesn't exist. I repeated her words in my head.
True love does not exist. True love does not exist. True love does not exist. True love does not exist!???
I could even ask why she said that. Our classmates came up to her and invited her to play basketball. Because she plays basketball very well. Rosie winked at me then left me with an unstoppable question. Even though I've known her for a long time, she's never said that. Her words and dialogue were deafening to me. Where I'm busy meeting with Rosie because she's currently playing basketball. At the same time, my gaze turned to the back of the playground where Rowoon was walking with Tia.
:I think Rowoon and Tia know each other. How close they were to each other, haven't you noticed.
About a foot away from me I heard someone say. I didn't watch but I always paid attention to them and all my eyes were on Rowoon and Tia. Maybe there are girls behind me talking about it. I heard it again.
:I also think, because Rowoon is very rude to everyone but to Tia he is very polite. To be honest, he doesn't like talking to any girls except Tia. After all, why wouldn't he do it. How beautiful and gorgeous she is. She is the most beautiful girl in the whole school.
Someone repeats.
: I don't think we got a chance to talk to him. Because Tia is still with him. Unfortunately, it is not part of our destiny. But it's still perfect.
"I don't have much knowledge about love. But I know you will definitely feel jealous when you see your crush or lover with someone else. Did Rosie say that. There really isn't real love, what isn't exist or did I love someone wrong?"
During this break, I was immersed in thoughts about love. I know, I'm not a mature girl. And that's why I didn't get my answer. But I immediately forgot this question because Rosie was telling me about my plan, how I would deal with my mother. Even though she will reject me at first, she will be fine after that. But that's enough, at the end of the story I will win and I will go for tour.
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Come on, come on, turn the radio on
It's Friday night, and it won't be long
Gotta do my hair, put my make-up on
It's Friday night, and it won't be long
'Til I hit the dance floor, hit the dance floor
I got all I need
No, I ain't got cash, I ain't got cash
But I got you, baby
Baby, I don't need dollar bills to have fun tonight
(I love cheap thrills)
Baby, I don't need dollar bills to have fun tonight
(I love cheap thrills)
But I don't need no money
As long as I can feel the beat
I don't need no money
As long as I keep dancing
Come on, come on, turn the radio on
It's Saturday, and it won't be long
Gotta paint my nails, put my high heels on
It's Saturday, and it won't be long
'Til I hit the dance floor, hit the dance floor
I got all I need
No, I ain't got cash, I ain't got cash
But I got you, baby
Baby, I don't need dollar bills to have fun tonight
(I love cheap thrills)
Baby, I don't need dollar bills to have fun tonight
(I love cheap thrills)
I don't need no money
As long as I can feel the beat
I don't need no money
As long as I keep dancing
It was discussing Friday afternoon. Today our school is closed because there is something happening in the United States that I didn't know about. I was worried that I couldn't see Rowoon.
After a few hours, I realized that I can't live without him. I don't even talk to him, but his presence means everything to me. A few hours now feel like a really long time since I haven't seen him. I feel really bad inside. What was supposed to happen to me in the future.
Unfortunately, I couldn't find anything to wear on December 7th. This is my first time going on vacation with Rowoon. I need to prepare and dress up in a nice outfit and put on some make-up. My mom Mary already said yes to it. I didn't have any stress. Every small action makes me think about him. Sometimes I can't stop thinking about him, other times I try to forget about him. But then I catch myself imagining a future with him, even though it could never happen. But sometimes we can't control our feelings like anger or happiness. And we can forget about them too.
My mom wasn't home because she went to her office. She has to work today and it's a bad day. I have to stay home all day. I told myself,
"What are you going to do next, Ms. Amelia Scott. Are you free oh no!"
I chose to take a short nap. But even after lying in bed for 30 minutes, my eyes were still not ready to fall asleep. I woke up feeling curious and angry, and I walked to my desk. I was thinking about what to do next when I remembered that why hadn't I written a paragraph about Rowoon.
"Wow Why didn't I think of this idea earlier. "
I got my notebook and started thinking about how to begin writing. It's the first time I'm writing for someone else. I did not write a paragraph for Rosie, but I am willing to write one for Rowoon. I saw the fan and some chipped paint on the ceiling of my room. The roof wall had many white cracks in it, which didn't look great but also wasn't terrible. I had a messy bun and messy thoughts, and I was still looking up at the roof with one leg swinging and the other on the chair.
I looked out of the window next to my bed. I suddenly remember how to start writing about Rowoon and me. I felt happy about my unusual ideas.
Saturday is implied to be for giving the expenses for that get-away. School and lesson won't progressing to happened nowadays. Thats why, I and Rosie fair total our expenses things. Nowadays I didn't meet with Rowoon and its the reason my temperament was off. I know, I wouldn't able to meet with Rowoon today and tomorrow too. Tomorrow is Sunday! It's the primary time that I can't be upbeat after hearing holidays. Cause it's gonna be 3 days that I wouldn't seen him. Rosie and I eat a few snacks on the way. She inquired me that time I still recollected,
:Ame, What's your contemplations almost sex?